I was thinking as I am approaching the two year mark of the explosion that transformed my life......why my commitment to exercise and all the rest has remained so steadfast......I have maintained my weight for the last two years, give or take a few pounds, no matter the cycles of holiday eating etc.....and that seems really remarkable to me......and I guess it is a representation of the consistency I have finally brought to my life and to the table....my willingness to show up every day, but why??? I was thinking about it some and is it more fun to buy clothes now????, yes for sure......do I feel better in my skin now????.....yes......have I found more confidence???.....yes to that too....but that isn't what drives me every morning.....it helps but it isn't my why........it truly has been the way I feel in this body......a strong one, a healthy one, a capable one........one that I can rely on and one that I can push, and one that shows up for me everyday......one without any aches and pains......one that feels really good every day.........I lived through a period where I thought I may have had some kind of autoimmune thing going on or maybe fibromyalgia......and my body felt pretty awful, every single day......chronic neck pain......chronic back pain.....all of it.....and not even because I was overweight by much at all....it was just that I wasn't honoring that my body needs something too.....I think as a society we are bombarded by ads and messages about exercise and fitness, and it can make everybody become really desensitized.......like "yeah yeah alright already"......but our bodies are absolutely meant to move every day in a real way......from an animalistic evolutionary standpoint.....we are not designed to be as sedentary as we have become......so my commitment stays by the feeling I get after a workout......flooding my body with feel good hormones, ones that stay with me all day and set my heart and mind straight for whatever comes in my day to day! And I do not diminish the challenge it is getting to where I am from a place of not exercising at all......it is SO challenging to get started......bridging the gap between the desire and the wanting to begin and giving it enough time for the habit to take hold, to feel the benefit......and I just never k knew how powerful it could be......you don't know until ya know.......my only regret is not starting sooner in my life:) and for me it happened quite by accident......I didn't set out to start exercising or with any fitness intention......my intention was to rid my body of all the toxic and heavy emotion it had inside of it, and instinctively my body chose that,,,,,,,so in some respects it was easier for me to start, because it came from a primal need.......but as I talked about in my resolution posts doing ANYTHING a little bit each day starts to build and bring that consistency and the beginning of those feel good feels:) I have finally learned what showing up for myself means......and I am never forgetting again.....and that is why I remain committed indeed! Hope you commit to you today too;)) HAPPY FRIDAY:)
jperuso
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