I think so often that I wish I could impart some of what I feel to other people in this part of my life.....I spoke of feeling awakened in every sense.....and in feeling the massive shift in my life.....but the biggest shift has been internal.....and it has been in that internal place where my self confidence has grown, grown to a place where I am free to live my life, and speak my truth without fear of what others will say, or without fear of judgement.......powerful right? :) But how?? How did I get here but more importantly how do I help others do that too....and I often ponder that and wonder how I could lead somebody to the place I am in.....feeling healthier and stronger and more confident inside their own selves.....feeling more joy and fulfillment and peace in the day to day......and sometimes I think it is as simple as telling somebody to do a bunch of things that build self confidence.....to start doing all the things you never thought you could and then repeat??? But that is sort of simplistic right?? Not really a road map.......not specific enough??? And where do you start in all that? It is a process, it most definitely doesn't happen overnight......you don't get to wake up and be in the spot you always wanted to be in.....I have mentioned before my frustration in watching the movie "The Secret" in my 20s, learning for the first time about the Law of Attraction.....having that law resonate with me, even then....but feeling wildly frustrated by the execution of it all......and having it really end up making me feel worse about my life circumstance the harder I tried to change it......having no belief in the outcome, just white knuckling it all lol and I believe your life is a representation, to some degree, of your inner self, your inner workings....the things you think about, the quality of your emotions, the inner dialogue you play out in the confines of your mind each and every day......what are you saying to yourself?? I used to say horrible things to me without even realizing it.....my inner voice is much kinder these days...much gentler............but I believe the more you "try" the less success is found.....one of the biggest lessons I have learned in this part of my life is the power of surrender.....of releasing and lying back.....and then the stuff comes....the releasing of the frantic energy and the fight allows the space for the rest......I believe in effort....do not misunderstand;-) but what I mean is that frantic holding on energy......or the pushing too hard to the places you are not meant to be.....when things start to feel complicated and hard and start to diminish your light that is the sign to ease up.....and sometimes I am not great at catching it right away.....but I am much better at it now.......so when the belief in your ability to have the things you want or the life you want......like true belief steps forward......and confidence in that, then those things will come.....and I do think that one of the avenues is to push yourself outside of your comfort zone......as often as you can......as far as you can.....as your confidence builds in that space it allows for you to move in a real way through your life.......so I guess the point of all of this is that there isn't one way, or a secret sauce, or a blueprint to offer people.....but there are many different ways to grow and offer people a real way to change and let their individual journey take hold and evolve too, and I plan on finding those ways to reach people where they are and help them find whatever light lights them up too! :)
jperuso
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