It has been a lovely spring break so far......the kids and I have had a lot of fun, and spending time with them in our flow is one of my favorite things....and truly the most comfortable thing I have ever known.....our spirits just GET each other on every level, and the energy is effortless.....we got to hike.....after we grabbed Mads from school Friday....she has a different schedule than ours.....and then we were lucky enough to do an Easter Egg hunt yesterday morning.....I had been bummed last weekend....knowing there were a bunch of hunts around, and I didn't have the kids.....and they didn't get to go last weekend with their dad.....so I was glad I had a chance to take them to the one at Apple Valley...it was lovely......and we saw some people we knew, and it was great to see THE bunny;-) Then we went and had lunch with my parents, my mom helped take my Easter dress in some it was a little big....and Mads and I are mommy and me dressing this year;-) SO exciting! Then we came home and did some chores.....and we just had a lovely Easter morning.....the kids were pleased with the bunny and her tricks and choices:) This morning I will go to church to see my brother preach at 10, and then head to their place for Easter dinner with some of my family....and it will be a lovely day! And as I sit here watching Mads and Gabe go through their baskets.....I just feel so grateful that the three of us truly......FEEL like a FAMILY.....like a REAL.....NOT damaged or broken family......we are not broken.....we are WHOLE......I remember that part shattering me in the aftermath of his leaving.....feeling like I had lost that family stuff forever.....that no matter who I met down the road....my family of 4 would never be again......and while I have found that to be partially true.....what I didn't realize then was that the three of us would just step closer together.....make our circle tighter....absorb his place....and fill it with light and love......and recreate what it means to be a family......redefine it.......make it our own.......and own our story and our family......the three of us feel like a family......as much as I have ever felt in any other place in my life where I was living day in and day out with a family......and damn if I am not so so blessed.....just so blessed......so this morning I rejoice in the fact that he is RISEN.....indeed.....and that that fact allows for so much in my life......I am so grateful for divine intervention......divine appointments......divine protection......and for every blessing that has shown up in the last 3 years to walk us to this place! WE ARE FAMILY......and no amount of trauma and betrayal can break that.....AMEN! Happy Easter everybody:)
jperuso
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