It occurs to me almost daily that I really and truly have the most extraordinary support system walking with me in this......my family and my friends have shown up for me in all the ways I have needed......and I feel like it should serve as an important reminder to always be that person for another person too.....the person that listens to it all.....even on repeat at times.....that creates a space for somebody to be who they are......who they really are.....in their pain, in their suffering, in their raw.......letting them say whatever they need to so they can do the next thing..........each person in my support system offers me a piece that I need......a support that I have desperately needed each step of the way......and it is the most important gift you can give another.....and as I got to thinking of these people, the ones I have relied on heavily to walk with me.......I thought about their selflessness and sacrifice to devote whatever time and space I need, to help me move through what I need.....it also made me think that many times in our lives we don't allow people into our "REAL"......we hide behind formalities, pleasantries, small talk, gossip, all the rest......and never really get to the root of people's raw......and I think that is a mistake.......I have always gravitated toward deeper conversations......about real things......wanting to know what makes somebody tick... small talk makes me uncomfortable......makes me feel socially awkward......but give me a deep conversation with a friend and I am in.....and in all the things I have been reading about energy, trauma, healing.......all of it.......one key component is being able to speak our truth.......say what we need to......own our truth......and the magic that occurs as a result......for awhile through this I have felt like I have hit some zone......some sort of synchronicity has begun to unfold......one where nothing feels by chance.....everything beginning to feel aligned......purposeful.......meaningful........mindful........intentional.....all of it.....and I don't think it is by chance.....but I think it is being fueled by my willingness to be real in all this......to speak my truth even if my voice shakes.....to share with my closest people and purge whatever comes.......lay whatever comes in my blog......my journal.....meditation.....so I can become closer to my authentic self.....and when we do that we hit an alignment with the universe that feels pretty amazing.....it feels like tuning into a radio station.....hearing static......then all of the sudden grabbing that clear radio station.....and then turning it up:). I have always been real with my friends I think.....willing to share my life in a candid way......but I will forever remain grateful for all of those that walk with me now......in this part of my life......willing to carry some of the weight, or give me a place to put it for a bit.....I am blessed indeed......and I plan on paying it forward for a somebody else that lies in my future......somebody walking my walk.....I will extend my hand to them........and walk with them......carrying some of their load too:)
jperuso
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