So unexpectedly I have been off for 12 days.....on the wings of sick kids post Thanksgiving break.....and most of it has been spent in solitude.....and it is interesting when you are in forced solitude......the first Christmas the kids and I were on our own we had Covid.......and the last Christmas he was here he was in quarantine and so were we, even though none of us got sick.....and both of those times were long stints in solitude and this felt like that......and I am grateful the kids hopefully got their crud over with pre holiday lol:) YAY!!!!:) And that they are feeling well again, and that I did not catch it.....but learning how to embrace solitude I think is so important.....and the truth is solitude isn't all that new in my new life.....my ex worked a lot, and wasn't present a lot, and the kids and I spent a lot of time on our own.....so I am acclimated to doing my thing and adjusting to it....but this past week has felt kinda long.....I took care of some important stuff that I needed to....paperwork and phone calls.......I blew leaves for hours.....and then raked them for hours more, and got them all cleaned up.....I cleaned my entire house from top to bottom.....purged some stuff.....caught up on laundry....cuddled my kids....took care of them.......watched movies.....binge watched some silly TV.....worked out a bunch.......did some reading....meditating.....writing......cooking.......decorating......and it all filled me up and made the time pass in a lovely and productive way......and being alone, or I should say sans another grown up, has gotten comfortable....maybe too comfortable......I do not fear solitude........I have spoken about the fact that I felt way more lonely in the end of my marriage, then I have for one moment post my divorce.....which I suppose tells me all of what I needed to know....but I am glad to be rejoining the world today:) Work and school on the docket.....the kids are so excited to go back to school and I am so grateful they both love it so much.....each having such a unique and full experience in their own right......doing amazing things, and growing and learning each day.....so that makes my heart happy.....I am looking forward to seeing the kiddos in my class so much but I am dreading going back to having had a sub for a week post holiday.....I am sure it will take some energy and effort to get my crew back on track, especially as we come up on another holiday in a minute....how does Christmas creep up so quickly??? Crazy right....each year it coming quicker and quicker......I am however welcoming 2024 in my mind.....feeling as if many shifts will happen for me, even more then have so far, and that there are expectant blessings and miracles ahead.....so that feels good.....I am trying not to get stressed about pulling together the holiday for my kids, and trusting that all will fall in line:) It always does right! So December slow down could ya??? I need some more time:) Happy Monday y'all:)
jperuso
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