I am so excited this morning as my feet hit the floor.......At the end of the day is my closing on MY house.......Seven years ago we bought our "dream house"......for all intents and purposes......we were so excited to get it. We both loved it so much and felt so proud to have gotten it together....... We had lost my first house to mold......I had owned it before him.....and we had to walk away......and so it completely ruined our credit.....put us behind.......we then rented a lovely house in Matamoras for the years leading up to working hard to buy the house I currently live in.......and now I am refinancing it, buying him out, and it will be MINE:) I cannot even really describe how it feels.......I had been open to moving.....totally.....even thinking it may be best......but also knowing whatever was best would present itself......trusting the journey.......and the journey led here......I love this house......my yard.......my deck........my fireplace......the vibe......the way it feels......and none of that is surrounded by the ghost of my marriage......and hasn't been......even my master bedroom.....MY bedroom is renovated, totally.......unrecognizable from my previous life......and I have big plans ahead to make this house even more of my own.......no question the three of us are supposed to be here a little longer.....how long has yet to be determined......the kids love it here too which makes my heart happy too..... the fact that I can pull this off alone makes my heart sing:) My gratitude ABOUNDS!!!!! A couple of years ago we were in debt........we had acquired debt when I was on my maternity leave for Madeline and not getting paid......credit cards piled up.......and so a couple of years I got a bee in my bonnet to consolidate and get us out of debt......and I did.....that final payment being made a few months after he left......so my being debt free......having a good credit score......and being in the position I am now in...... allowed me to keep my dream house......at least me dream house for now;-) that lake house though!!!;-) Next on the bucket!;-) But for now this is home.......MY home......and it reminds me endlessly of the women that are in my situation I am in.......being left with children.......that are stay at home moms and don't have this opportunity, and my heart aches for them........because the truth is if I had to move right now due to such circumstances......where would I go??? To a rental for $2,000 a month!!!! It is insane.........the market all awry.........so it feels amazing to stay here......for less than $2,000 a month......and still be contributing to an investment.....MY investment.......and enjoy it while it lasts.....and it tastes like the final bite of freedom.......I am divorced......and as the sun sets today I will own my own house BY MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) NEW CHAPTER:) YIPPEEEEEEEEEE!! Grateful and oh so blessed! :)
jperuso
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