Some tough stuff.....

This part of the year is daunting and I always forget till I am right up in it.....and then I am like oh yea this is not my favorite run lol:) I think we all feel like that some as the winter continues to linger, and our thoughts have turned to spring things.....but yea this little piece of it all challenges me each year......Financially it is draining.....heating season having been here for awhile....and all that goes with it....I am usually in the full tilt juggle of the kids and who is taking who where if our schedule is altered in some way.....that is what wears me.....there are a few things that saturate me as a single mom.....and the solo juggling of the schedules and kids is a big one, amid school delays and all the rest, when my school rarely makes the same call as DV.....and I am fortunate to have my parents to fill in on those moment shifts, but still sometimes it proves difficult......I have an army of people that help me make this life work, and the day to day, and for that I am grateful indeed.....Like hard to articulate grateful........However having lamented a little right there about this run of the year.....the pervasive theme is just deep appreciation, and gratitude for the infinite blessings in my life....the ones that came to save me after the fallout.....and continue to.....just endless......an invisible raft staying steady and true beneath me amid the waves.....but I would be lying if I said I don't get weary at certain points.....endless decisions and problem solving, and then some more.....and I love to problem solving to a big degree but even I have my limits....and as education becomes more challenging and the demands increase.....emotionally and otherwise, I feel my reserves being taxed some.....this year has flown by again.....this month maybe the longest.....April is PSSA month.....that makes it blink by....and then May is full of activities, last minute stuff and then summer:) And gosh I am excited to see it come.....I am trying to plan a getaway for the kids and I out west somehow....that is my goal.....but we will see....it may need to wait some....but as with the rest in my new life I simply trust......the pieces come together as they should.....when they should......and we need not fret at all:) So that is the spirit I am bringing into the is quarter of the year......a spirit of trusting and working it out......this weekend I have my kids and we are planning on hiking somewhere new, and having some fun activities planned together and that is my favorite part.....I understand deeply that this special part of our lives is fleeting.....and one day they will be grown and doing more of their own things.......and in the meantime I plan on soaking up all of it! :) Happy Thursday:)