The kids are with their dad this weekend......and so much of what is happening is stuff I would not choose for my kids......or in general as it relates to this situation.......I mean so much....but the fact remains I cannot change it......and that lesson has been on repeat this year.....one thing after another stepping forward that feels awful when I first meet it, and soon my understanding comes to say "you can't change it Jenn"......so accept it or let it go......and in all of those moments collectively, I have changed.......being so much more willing to let the things I cannot change GO........but it is deeper than that......it isn't just the things of Serenity Prayer.....although that prayer becomes wiser and wiser to my ears as my life unfolds......it is truly having to figure out a way to accept in your soul......so that you can maintain your joy and peace even if.......even if things happen that you don't like......or don't agree with, even if they directly relate to YOUR life and YOUR children......it is not easy and I definitely don't have it all figured out......but I commit every day to making it my goal......if something comes across my path that I can't do anything about......I know it is a thing that is challenging this part of me, and that I need to find a way to accept it......make peace with it.......look on the bright side......have hope that maybe it will turn out better than I imagine......maybe what I THINK about it.....isn't so......maybe.......maybe......so each time I can do that I take my power in this life back and most definitely this situation.....and I guess even though I have written about this before, it is in the forefront at the moment because I have had to do A LOT of it recently......and really challenge my willingness to do that.......I know very clearly that much of a person's unhappiness comes from them believing something should be different than it is......it is their expectation and fighting of a circumstance that brings them that unhappiness......and it takes most of us a long time and much practice to be able to accept what comes and maintain our happiness......no matter what.......and sometimes it still falls short.......but we absolutely have a choice.......the Serenity Prayer has been on my mind so much lately.....reminding me.......guiding me.......helping me know what I have to do......and that I have to trust.......and not hold on too tightly to trying to control what something will be.....and I don't.......so maybe this can touch somebody today......serve as a reminder to let go of something in your life that you cannot change....find a way to accept it......it was on my heart to share this this morning.......so maybe that is why:)
jperuso
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