So I feel I use that word a lot lately......like way more than I ever did or maybe ever was aware of in my life......and I felt maybe it deserved some explanation or some kind of attention all by itself.......so here it goes:) I suppose most of my life I knew about our souls and the relationship our souls have to us and our journey on this earth and that our bodies and outer shell are just that.......and the essence of who we are lies within that shell.......and I am sure I never paid much attention to what my actual soul was all about......at least not too much before this..........I feel some of the experiences I have had in my life have touched my soul.....made me feel the connection to its presence and its actual existence, but in terms of getting up close and personal with my soul for any length of time I have not had that experience......until now.......I am more aware of my soul at this current time than anything else in terms of my growth and where I am headed......and I was wondering why it has been so prominent to me.......and I think the answer lies in the fact that what happened wounded my soul so deeply, like down to the very core and essence of who I am, that I had to take a look at it........be really aware of it......so much in those early days.........and now that some of the pain has subsided and healing has begun in a real way, I feel like I am much more in tune with the desires it has and the way it functions in the world......what brings it to life, and what makes it feel heavy.......and it is amazing! Amazing to feel my life force in such a real and present way in my life......... I urge anyone reading this to check in on yours if you can, and haven't in a bit;-).....it is so easy to get into autopilot......but check out a new thing that may make you super happy soon and see if your soul agrees:). I finally feel integrated for lack of a better word.......like the pieces that make up my mind, body, and spirit are finally living in a way I have never felt before.....in hindsight I suppose there were times in my life that I felt like those pieces were sorta at war with one another before........like one piece doing well to the detriment of the others part......a constant dance in timing and it was just slightly off.....and then synchronicity took hold and the pieces found each other......I think mindset must come first, perhaps above all else..........and meet your physical efforts......exercise, fitness, physicality, all of it, there is something there that needs to be aligned for it to really work........a friend took a picture of me the other day, and in the picture was a side muscle in MY arm.......MY arm.....lol ........and I have been wildly excited about it since......because it was a physical representation of the work I do every single day to keep me sane, to keep my mind and heart healthy and strong........and I got to see myself in a different way........... and I think the results are starting to come faster for me lately due to my commitment increasing, but more importantly my belief in it........my mindset is totally linked to it.......and then I feel our soul is the case around all that stuff, mind and body and it is the essence of us........and there is something in the balance of those things that helps to tap into a hidden space within.......the light that lives in all of us........and I feel like I have found that place in me........because what was draining my soul's energy is gone.......the absence palpable.....and because the human spirit is so complicated we don't even realize in a real sense when our energy and essence is being tapped........we acclimate to whatever road we are on.......and our souls step right in line......it sort of feels like my soul's light needed a new bulb and somebody changed the bulb and flipped the switch........and there it was.......and my hope moving forward is that I will feel the feeling of being drained happening sooner than later as it relates to people in my life, so I can keep that light on.......stay in my peace........stay true to my essence, of WHO I REALLY AM.......... and not let it get drained again.........not ever again.........
jperuso
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