I often write about the contrast I have found in this chapter of my life.....like the feeling that in the before I was so unaware of so much.....and then my world fell apart and things became so much clearer, and intentionality found my life.....and it isn't just my finding intention.....it is also an awakening of paying attention to the "universal pull" stuff......the places where the universe is pulling me and the places it is leading me to be.....and I have a situation in my life right now that has taken unbelievable twists and turns.....and most definitely keeps getting pulled back toward me no matter what......and if I had not experienced it firsthand I would not believe it myself.......and I marvel at what that is....like what is that power beyond our own that makes places, people, and situations find us no matter what......I guess even when we are unaware........God and universal magic at play as we live our lives..........and when I met my ex husband we were 19 and we spent a summer falling in love and crazy about each other, and then he moved.....and we couldn't make it work at our ages....and my heart always remembered him.....and then 7 years later my friend took me to a party at his house, he had moved back to the area unbeknownst to me, we had lost touch and had been busy living our lives.... and it was a random decision, on a random night...........but the universal pull brought me to his doorstep.....and when I walked in, BAM ......that was it......a divine meeting, an appointment.....universal pull so strong it was unmistakable, and meant for me, no question......and despite how it ended I believe that so deeply......my kids were meant to be mine.....this story was mine.....that experience for two decades, all of it......but the circumstances of finding my way there were seemingly random and quite by accident.....and as I watch my journey unfold, I marvel constantly at the order in the mess......meaning that sometimes life feels messy and hard, and surprisingly sad or hurtful.....but then a piece steps forward and the understanding arrives....the why of the jangling of the rest of it.....and things are lining up in my life now for a surprising and fated meeting of sorts.....fate is such a dramatic word right??:) But I love it and I believe in it.....in its existence....Fate speaks to the "development of events and things beyond a person's control, and regarded as determined by a supernatural power"....and well this situation kinda feels that way to me for sure......and I suppose the magic of this life is the awareness of the magic that swirls around us......even when we cannot see it or explain it......or understand it fully.....it exists for us.....to lead us right where we should be in any given moment......I definitely believe this one story line in particular in my life, has fated tendencies, and a destiny kinda vibe that I cannot explain nor avoid, nor control.......and I am letting it all unfold as it should and being open to the places it takes me! Happy Thursday!
jperuso
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