I had the most perfect weekend this weekend......a weekend long in the making, and one that I desperately needed.....but not realizing just how very much, until it arrived.....and I strive and overthink sometimes, to make things "perfect" or feel that way.....whatever that means right;-) Perhaps perfection is an illusion.....but I do believe it is found in the eye of the beholder.....similar to perception......tied to one another......and this weekend will sustain me for quite sometime......fulfilling a great deal of things for me.......and providing wonderful insulation for the trials that are ahead......I have some stuff I am facing......and reflecting on the last couple of days will be a source of strength and light in that......and the idea of forcing perfection can be a challenge......but letting it unfold on its own, and arriving as it is meant to is far superior to that.......once upon a time in my life I sought the perfection in my life......my marriage.....my story.....and I shone bright light on the parts of it that felt the best.....and I do not think there is anything wrong with that.....especially when it is genuine and comes from a good place.....not meant to deceive.....just to focus on that.....but the truth was that underneath those perfect moments I chose to share, and bring forth to the light, there were a lot of things I was not sharing......feeling some kinda way because it wasn't perfect.......and well......that was a lot of pressure......and once I released that......and allowed my real life to step forward......there was freedom in that.......and I guess I find myself a reformed perfectionist.......seeking the real and nitty gritty.....and sharing it all as honestly as I can......although that part still lives in me......I seek to make things around me feel as good as they can......and seek opportunities for that......and I guess I say all of that just to express the beauty I found in perfection showing up this weekend effortlessly.....in all of the best ways.....arriving on my doorstep......and it was amazing for that to be so.....and this weekend consisted of lots of my favorite things.....bravery.....faith.....truth.....trust.....courage and so much more.....and I never take these moments for granted.....the ones that come to find me and sustain me amid the storms I find myself in......sometimes I feel overwhelmed that my life can be so challenging....and wish it was a little easier at certain points....but when I am met with the beauty that finds me often I cannot feel that way......because those challenges bring me to those beautiful spaces......equal parts......I am not sure where the perfection of this weekend will lead.....and that is just fine by me.....because this morning just finds me grateful.....grateful for all of it......the good......the bad.....the ugly.....and all things in between:) Happy Labor Day!
jperuso
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