Sometimes you do indeed need to make a decision to capture a moment.....yesterday was challenging because I knew that Mads was indeed fighting something......but that wasn't the only factor......losing my kids every other weekend diminishes opportunities I once had for do overs and for more time. And I just don't have that same luxury anymore.....which hurts my heart, and I would be lying if I said it didn't......as much as I have come to embrace my time on my own when they go with their dad, and try and plan fun things to fill the time......I would give it all back to have my kids with me all the time......couple the diminished weekend availability......with Covid robbing us of so much over the past several years when Mads was so small.....and knowing the Santa window will not be open for Mads forever......for Gabe yes:) But not sure how many more years we have for Mads to believe...... I knew I had to jump on the opportunity yesterday and make it work.....and I have no regrets....we did do a Covid test before we left to be responsible.....but the germs are most definitely everywhere right now and sort of is what it is......It was a nice ride despite the rain.....lots to see. Jim Thorpe is a cute little town.....I definitely need to go back there and check it out when I have more time....so much to see! We had a nice lunch then got on the train......it was a pretty scenic ride along the river.....looks like there are lots of great hiking spots there to explore for another day;-)......and Santa was good enough, coming along the car and saying hi.....we had done the Polar Express years ago when Gabe was small and I was pregnant with Mads......and it was much more impressive for sure, but you get what you pay for too......the tickets for Polar Express are so expensive! And this really fit the bill for our purposes yesterday......an easy and affordable way to capture some Christmas magic:) So Mads hung in all day having fun. Last night she was tired and not feeling well still......not sure what this next week will hold, which brings up some stress for my working mama self......a working mama who is almost out of sick time and not wanting to take days without pay......but ultimately knowing there is nothing I can do.....what will be will be.....fighting it and stressing won't change any of it........... As I said I am viewing this year as transition back to our normal immune systems and normal germs......and we just need to ride it out.......Yesterday was a special memory to carry in our hearts and I am grateful beyond words we pulled it off! Making the most of my weekends with my kids in December is th4e plan, because Christmas will be here before we blink indeed.......
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