SO my kitchen though......it has remained a challenge daily, to look at its unfinished state and not let it diminish my joy......to just accept that.......for now.......that is the way it is.....and I have tried to figure out some ways to solve it, and it isn't easy, or cheap to solve.....so it has remained on the back burner for a long time......next month it will be two years that it has remained the way it is........no ceiling......torn apart......no proper lighting.....mid renovation in every way.......it functions as a kitchen luckily....but it is very visibly undone.........and I still often wonder why he tore it apart????......planning that renovation with me??......knowing somewhere inside of him, his plan was to leave??......makes no sense.......and it is so unfair in all the ways something can be.......but that unfair place, is a futile place to live in........there is nothing to be done now......and so I must shift my focus forward......so I have been praying about it......trying to find some solution to my dilemma....some answer......and then the fab over 40 contest came across my radar....on my newsfeed.......and I read about it.....and thought why not me??? I have a compelling story......have put in the work.....have just as good a chance as anybody, and the first prize being $40,000, would be a game changer! TRULY......and a magazine spread.......getting my message out there and promoting where I want to be in this life......so I decided to go all in and swing for the fence! It was not easy to put myself out there......however here is what I have come to learn.......people are going to say what they will.....no.......matter......what......and you have no power in it......people receive your energy and your vibe through their own lens.......and it won't matter your intentions......your mission.......your heart.......your soul.......it will either be understood, or misunderstood.......so there is no point in playing small in an attempt to appease some folks.....there just isn't.......you have to play to appease yourself and the only things we miss out on are the in the chances we never take:)......and I am taking a chance.....and trusting the outcome with all my heart.......if winning this contest is mine for the taking...... it will be.......no doubt in my mind.......I put the wheels in motion, and however far down the track the train rolls will remain to be seen! I was so wildly appreciative after I had the courage to put myself out there yesterday......that it was well received and supported! What an enormous gift! I am excited to see where it goes and excited for tonight's women's series and tackling some self care! I am a blessed woman! Make it a great day everybody:)
jperuso
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