I felt it might be kinda cool to write about this.....to document this part of my journey......my sense of smell is completely gone......spraying perfume.....cannot smell it......body wash right up to my face.....cannot smell it......also Gabe passing gas the other day couldn't smell that, only Madeline could LOL:). So there's that! And my sense of taste is odd.......sort of muted sometimes but then other times almost gone......have heard the stories of it remaining gone....trying not to worry or think about that too much......obviously you can live without those things and with all the high prices people have paid for Covid, including their lives it doesn't seem really all that important......but I am hopeful it will return......having those senses skewed has affected my other ones too.....my sense of touch is weird, it is hard to explain but the way things feel are different somehow a little, making it hard to articulate or explain.....and this morning I am having some ear pressure, I think from the endless congestion.....so the doctor had given me an antibiotic that I was trying not to take but I did this morning......so my hearing is a bit muted as well:) So it is interesting to have things we take for granted in our lives challenged some right? Before Covid none of us thought our senses of smell or taste was up for loss......something that wouldn't always belong to us? Yet here we are, living in a world where it is happening at a rapid rate and for some folks never returning, or not in the same way it was before it left......and I feel that that is the lesson I have been handed the most this year.......and certainly when this all began......that we can never take for granted that something cannot happen to us......sometimes we get up in our heads and feel insulated from stuff......or think that something can't or won't happen to us.....I know I did......a few years ago I absolutely thought that I was insulated from infidelity.....that I had the kind of husband incapable of such horror....not my Nick....I felt that one million percent......and yet..........so I guess that never say never business is very true.......you just never know.......and non of us are immune to the things of this life......even if we feel we are......and sometimes we have to accept what is.....another huge one this year for me.....that whatever comes I am accepting its presence in my life......nothing else to be done really.......and in the acceptance and not fighting of what is you often find your resilience, your inner strong......your warrior......it is not weak to accept.......it takes more strength that way......fighting stuff all the time is not where real strength lies.......floating is.:). So when you lean back into the storm and let yourself ride the waves on your back.....that is where our strength and peace lies.......I am hopeful my senses will return.......statistics are on my side, but have accepted the possibility they may not......and if not I will learn to adjust as I have the rest! Adjust, reset, and move forward:)
jperuso
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