Before I get into my blog this morning I just have to share:) I have written of keeping my house at 60 to conserve some on heat and oil, my house is pretty big and a lot to heat....and I have electric heaters that supplement, and keep us plenty warm.....but.....I just bought myself a $24 electric blanket for my chair in the morning downstairs, where it is colder every morning....and I am in heaven this morning lol:) Wish I would have done it sooner! It is plush and toasty and yay! :):)So anyway....I digress;-)
I also wrote awhile back about the skin cancer story that plays or played in the background of my life for a long time.....when Gabe was 2 I had an early melanoma removed from my shoulder.....it truly scared the crap out of me at the time.....not knowing how serious etc.....but it was caught pretty early, and I vowed then to be vigilant about protecting my skin, and getting skin checks....but not driving myself crazy and looking over my shoulder for it always, knowing it may never be a concern again.....and it was an intuitive nudge that had that spot removed....flash forward to during the pandemic and my ex's affair....and another one....same arm jumped out at me, and I asked the doctor to check it....and she thought it was ridiculous and did so reluctantly....and that one was right before it turns to melanoma and I caught it early again, with my intuitive nudge....and that got dug out too....and so recently I had a dry spot under my eye.....pretty convinced it was the beginning of squamous cell skin cancer....much less aggressive and runs in my family.....but the spot was pronounced....pronounced enough for me to make an appointment asap....and that is what the doctor was sure it was too....so they used liquid nitrogen to freeze it......but while I was there, there was another freckle on that arm, calling my name....asking to be removed....almost blinking at me if you will....and so I asked her to.....she again did not agree that it was a concern, but trusts me due to my history....and they biopsied and I found out again yesterday that the cells are iffy and early.....and it will likely need to be dug out a little more.....so I feel like the spot on my face led me right where I needed to be, so one would think that maybe that would fill me with anxiety....because my body is covered in freckles....and really any of them could be betraying me at any point right?? But that isn't how I feel about it.....I feel grateful that my intuition, guided by my divine co pilot, speaks to me when it is time to check one out.....and I have had others checked on my legs, which gives me some peace too...they are always negative.....the vigilance I give to this part of life is something I have grown accustomed to, paying attention to my body and looking out for me......My left arm is a tapestry of scars, and now there will be another....and for me it is a reminder of God's grace and provision in my life.....and my faith.....and so much more.....so I trust the Universal juju completely.....and will continue to be mindful of the places on my skin that need attention....while letting go and not living in fear about it....there is no point.....I have realized once and for all, our story in this life is ours....and however it is supposed to go it will....and fretting and worrying doesn't change a thing....and ruins the short term.....so I do my part and then LIVE:) And that seems like exactly what I should be doing.....so this morning finds me with gratitude in my heart, for another catch, and maybe a cool tattoo will be in order for that arm at some point lol:) Stay tuned lol:) And if you have anything sketchy on your skin, get it checked@ Don't wait! :)Enjoy your Wednesday:)
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