Tonight is the night of the dating event......and I have mixed feelings.....there is so much going on in my life at the moment.....lots of moving parts.....so I feel like my mind is all over the map......but I am game for an adventure tonight......forcing myself to get out there some.....truthfully meeting people in person versus online dating sounds much better.....easier.....and as is true with most things, whatever is meant for me.....is meant for me......so if my soul mate is hanging around Milford tonight I will meet him LOL;-) I suppose stranger things have happened......and really that is not what I am seeking........at the moment.......I am open I suppose at any point to that sort of thing.....but for now I am enjoying my life and looking to meet other single folk:) Most of my friends are married.....and I am in this weird spot socially.....I am lucky to have some great friends that are around for adventures when the kids go with their dad.....but it will be nice to meet some other single people.....chat and have some fun......must admit I am a little scared, it has been a long time since I have done something like this......roamed where the single people are! ;-) I guess what helps now, is that I truly feel free and single......I am not tethered to my marriage....in any way.....no more attachments......so it feels like just me......putting myself out there some.....I will know some people there too, so that will be good! I promised myself in my new life that my answer to stuff would be yes more often......not overthink it.....just do it.....and plan adventures.....because life is meant to live.....and I don't feel as if I wasted my life before this....but I wasn't nearly as present and mindful about how I spent my time.....and I am never doing that again.......for the second act of my life, I am seeking adventures and experiences that touch my soul and will make great stories when I am an old lady.......... and take me into my golden years:) So tonight I suppose isn't so much a soul touching experience, but it is an experience nonetheless.......and why not?? I want to start creating my bucket list.....on pen and paper.... and checking that stuff off! So in the spirit of yes not no, I will go tonight, and be open to whatever comes of the night! I am sure at the very least I will have a good time, some laughs and have some more dating experience under my belt......I am not too good at it LOL:) I am content though and happy to take baby steps into the dating part of this journey.......happy to put the majority of my energy into crushing my goals, and creating a life I am crazy about.....and then if somebody comes along and wants to hang out with me in that life, not rob me of my peace......bring peace of their own..... and has a pretty cool one of their own......then I will be down to hang out.....:)
jperuso
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