It occurred to me the other day that there are likely a lot of lonely people in this world......and it is sad to think of......I am blessed to have had my kids through this situation....not too much time to be lonely;-) And I truly have not felt the pang of loneliness too often except as it comes to some casual companionship.........affection.......adventures with a guy.....just a little bit:) There is a place in me yearning for just a little bit of male energy in my life;-) It got me thinking though that it is a challenging issue to solve........and dating sites are not the answer.......this Friday I am going to a dating event in town.....sort of like a mixer meets speed dating......and it is fun to think of, but also terrifying....LOL:) I am keeping an open mind and embarking on it in the spirit of adventure! So again I say all of this to say that I truly trust the timing of my life.......the way I am led........the people I meet......and when and if there is a man up ahead for me......I feel him out there......and know all of this will make sense in that moment........but am OK if he never arrives too......if my intuition is wrong.........which is kinda powerful..........and I am in no rush to give up the single peace I have found......but it is the issue with the meantime.......the dating part.....the other parts.......the how? I have a single guy friend......actually two...... that date endlessly......find lots of connections on their dating sites......and I think how? LOL. I cannot even find a guy I want to message with........none that appeal.......let alone actually meet in real life......is it their standards? Mine? Or their openness to receive, and my being closed off? Hard to say......I am likely not sending out a signal to the Universe that anybody should approach me at the moment lol:) Maybe I should work on it;-) The last few days as I am winding down in my marriage.......writing the final ending......I guess this issue has cropped up......just wanting to do a little something in my life...... and not knowing how......there are just some things I miss.......deeply......that are hard to ignore.......and I know it is in the acceptance of these things, being as they are, is where my peace steps forward........and I also know that nothing happens in our lives until the time is right.......I know that as deeply as I have known anything......my faith is strong and clear on that.........so it is just a challenge in my mind is all.........like so many other things! Good thing my mind is up to it!;-) I am hoping that next Covid surge stays away.......... and as spring approaches......just the opening up of concerts......and life........ will be just enough social for this chick.........and some exciting adventures will present themselves:)
jperuso
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