This weekend was a busy one and a blessed one! I pulled all of my Christmas stuff out. It always reminds me of my putting it away solo soon after my ex left....and it being my first real declaration to myself that I can do it all myself.....I have a tree in every room and so much, so it is no simple feat;-) .....but one I feel plenty confident in and am grateful for that.....so Mads and I spent the better part of Saturday decorating.....and then yesterday we went to church, and I was feeling stressed some about problem solving being in two places at once.....Gabe wanted to be back at church at 12 to help the youth group with their day of giving and bagging up food, and Mads had a birthday in the opposite direction at 12 too....and I have found that if I take things piece by piece, day by day, it is less overwhelming....so I decided to ask for what I needed, and asked the church if Gabe could come a little earlier, so that I could make it to the party for Mads.....they were more than happy to accomodate, and said there would be other folks starting earlier and it was no problem......our church really is such a magical place and I am so grateful we have it in our lives......such a blessing! So I spoke with Mads in the car on the way about us having to leave a little earlier from the party to come get Gabe, and she was disappointed and wanting to stay.....and it made me feel sorry for her, the adjustments and concessions she too needs to make and Gabe to live our new life.....a life they didn't ask for either.....I told her we could stay till the time we absolutely had to leave to get Gabe in time.....we got to the party and had a great time....I got to meet some of the newer moms at her school.....and then I expressed having to leave to get Gabe and one of the other moms happily volunteered to bring Mads home.....and then relief just flooded over me....she was having such a good time and it would have been hard to have to have her leave right then, and they had just started eating and hadn't had cake or anything....it was such a gift.....and the village of folks that can support me some as I juggle the moving pieces is such a blessing to my life....I have an army of them....different people on pick up throughout the week.....My single mom friend grabbing Mads two days for me and driving her to school every day.....my parents picking up on one of the days, them going to their dad's Wednesdays.....Another day another mom grabs Mads for me.....and Gabe is able to stay for sports every single day, so that I don't have to juggle him amid the mix, and can grab him from the late bus most days.....and I thought of that the other day....his sudden interest and love of sports forming right at the perfect time.....feeling divine somehow....because it fell into place so perfectly.....and so when I hit these challenging spots where I need to be in two spots.....I deeply breathe and know the way will appear......and sometimes the juggling and scrambling of it all is heavy.....I would be lying if I said it wasn't taxing to figure it all out sometimes.....but my gratitude for the solution always emerging is just immense.....we had a great weekend and our house is Christmas ready....and I am enjoying it, and feeling grateful for my village this morning amid the twinkle of lights, and for the people that step up when I need help, it is such a blessing and wildly appreciated:) Happy Monday!
jperuso
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