Perhaps soon?

I have been feeling the moving nudge again lately.....like it will be time for me to leave this place in the next year.....and I have written about feeling burdened by the upkeep and financial responsibility that comes with this house....and how it feels as if it is weighing me down some as of late.....despite my deep gratitude for getting to live here.....getting to stay here after my world came crashing down.....so the last few weeks have found me in the pre planning and pre thinking of solutions to all of that;-) nothing fully materializing as of yet....but my pondering ways to alleviate that.....I have spoken of my big goal in this life before....seeking to speak life into it as much as I am able, in the spirit of manifesting it, and that is to have a lake house retreat for women to come and heal post separation, divorce, and infidelity, and have a place on the property for their children to come and heal too....and I meditate on it frequently....it is all created in my mind....it is a truly beautiful place:) and all I have read, says that things are first created in our minds, and then they find their way into existence, and I am betting on that:) It is a big dream and could be such a game changer in so many ways.....a sanctuary of sorts for wounded hearts.....and a place of deep healing:) so that is my long range goal....and this house has never been my long term goal after my divorce......I have always known the kids and I would only stay here for awhile after it all....but eventually move on......and I think what I am seeking when the time is right is our next home to serve as a little bridge to the lake house plan:) A rental I am thinking.....and it comes with lots of emotions.....I am walking a line these days....one between wanting to keep and preserve all of the things I have acquired in this life......material things....some things that matter to me, others not so much....but things that have value for sure.....and on the other side of that I find myself deeply wanting to purge so much of it and let so much go......and I stand right between those two places.......and at the very least....until the way becomes clear....I believe I need to thin out my stuff......start to intentionally purge......I have done some since my divorce, but not nearly enough......so perhaps as I type this it makes sense to spend the winter doing that.....being mindful of what gets to stay and what needs to go.....and there are feelings related to it all too.....this house has been my home......maybe the only other place in my life, besides my parent's house, that has felt like home.....and it housed some of my best memories, and some of my worst......and the idea of leaving it behind feels both sad and liberating......at the same time.....the idea of starting over, truly, feeling delicious......so it still feels a little ways off......but I feel it.....clearly......that the time is growing near to moving on....and I am trusting the signs and nudges that lead me to the way.....I trust it all with all of my heart:)