This week was ROUGH.....it was exhausting.....just being back to school is hi def for sure....but then add in stuff both before and after school all four days, and juggling schedules, and pick up and drop offs and well......and last night ended with a trip to urgent care for Gabe....he is coming down with something.......already......he opted not to go to his dad's, and stay here with me this weekend......and I am happy to take care of him:).....but this week showed me some stuff.....my self care really is on point most days......I do things every day to pour into myself some, like exercise and meditation, blogging and hiking when I can...... to be able to combat the stress of it all....and this week I was unable to do that to the level I normally do.....I did exercise every day, but it was the abridged version, and I did minimal meditation, and got less sleep, and well it all added up....and I felt it.....and it got me thinking how the hell I survived my old life.....like for realz;-) I was under so much stress and pressure on a continuous loop, and I had nothing in place then to counterbalance it......and I think back, and I think I would numb out some on TV, or try and sleep at a decent hour......but there was nothing to sustain me when life got hectic....and I really cannot stress the importance of it all enough.....I would never know the importance of it, if I didn't live both lives.....and I definitely felt crankier this week.....and not as peaceful as I normally do ......because I was running ragged, and once upon a time I ran ragged ALL the time.....and I suppose you acclimate to whatever life demands.....and I certainly did....and I remember finding joy where I could......peace....and fun.....but I had no idea then that I had the power to create it.....every day......no matter what.....and getting a little taste of slipping some this week reminded me.....and made my commitment to my mission even stronger.....that is one of my main things, when I host my women's series that I share that and try and impart during the course of the series.....that they too can take some form of self care back to their everyday lives......it is so powerful, and nobody teaches us that....especially as women....we really are encouraged to be depleted......celebrated for it even.....have said it before....martyr motherhood.....and it isn't right.....and I know so many people in my life that are swimming so hard, but drowning most days in that feeling.....that depleted......overworked, overextended, tough place.....and I get it because I was there......for a LONG time.....and sometimes I wonder how I survived it.....and I share and share again....and again...because I so wish I had known sooner....so from time to time it is good to see the difference.....and be reminded of the power that lies in that difference, the one we can make in our lives, the one that changes everything.....take care of yourselves this weekend, everybody:) It matters.....I promise!
jperuso
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