Motivation is a tricky thing.....it is the intangible thing that keeps us going.....a hidden force that comes to find us, making it capable to do the things......and it is something that I possess and have most of my life to varying degrees......in a lot of areas of my life....but it is also I have struggled with, just like anybody else.......my fitness journey has been motivated by my need to rid myself of toxic feels that threatened to destroy me......it was also fueled by an opposition in my being to being destroyed......a giant pushback......a roar that said you won't force me to my bed to eat food, gain weight, and feel worse about myself than I did in those initial days.....you just won't......and during my ex's affair his girlfriend took verbal pot shots at me.....often.......saying stuff to attempt to hurt me.....to lessen who I was......to diminish me.....stuff that wasn't true about my physical self.....or me at all.....stuff to make her feel better......but guess what I used that too.....and I did none of what I have for another person.....I truly haven't, it has been me vs. me from day one.....but my point is.....motivation comes wearing all sorts of clothing.....and it doesn't really matter what it looks like......it has to be the specific thing you needed to light that fire.....and then the reason it all continues often changes......I don't use my workout for the same purposes I once did..... now my motivation lies in my results and how I FEEL......did I mention how good I feel lol:) It is so true.....to live in a fit, healthy, and strong body you can trust in your day to day, has no price tag......there is no amount of snooze button that feels as good as I feel now.....and the energy I have found in working out every morning.....I am proud too that I developed my routine myself......looking stuff up based on the goals I have had, and making up my routine....about 40-45 minutes or so now.....and I have begun to up my game this past week......jumping from 7lb hand weights to 10 and feeling the shift clearly.....knowing it will supercharge my next level......I had spoken of redoing my workout room....which I am.....deciding if I want to paint.....it is a daunting prospect lol:) but it definitely needs to be done.....I bought some motivational posters that I framed.....a new rug.....and I am excited to polish up that space.....and grateful for the space.....and know wherever I go in the future, I will need that space to be there! I plan on continually evolving in terms of what I ask of my body.....pushing my limits......trying exercises I don't want to do lol:) My most recent one is the Spiderman plank, I most definitely don't look as graceful as the woman I saw do it at this point lol:) but I will;-) I also do push ups every day now, even though I don't love them....and don't wanna .lol I guess the point of all of this this morning.....is to ask you to seek what motivates you......even if initially it is questionable.....or maybe not the finest of motivations....it doesn't matter.....what gets you started isn't as important, as what keeps you going......and it is so hard to start......I feel that deeply, and have been there......many times.....but if you start, finding that one nugget of motivation.....and build the momentum.....that motivation and momentum will grow....like a runaway train........I promise! I am cheering you on! Happy Wednesday everybody:)
jperuso
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