After yesterday's blog and writing about my divine appointment with that woman, I was blessed enough to receive further confirmation by way of the hymn in church yesterday morning.........which was "Here I am Lord".....as I had mentioned in yesterday's blog and before church service:) a nod indeed......I had been asked to speak at church yesterday about my faith.......and it was a lovely service and a lovely way to start such a great day......but all of yesterday was proof......proof that I can believe in me and that I can do all the things I used to in my old life.......on my own.......it took me days to get ready for the party yesterday but I did it, all on my own, with the exception of my mom making her yummy macaroni salad;-) which was much appreciated! This was the first big undertaking, that I have taken on in terms of a party on my own......and it felt good to prove to me that I could do it.....the kids and adults had a blast........they all stayed fairly late and just kept saying how much they enjoyed it......all of the parents were so helpful and we all had so much fun together......we don't know each other very well, because we are in and out for drop off, and to some events through the year, but socializing is rare......so I also wanted that to be one of the goals, for all of us to get to know each other better:) and we did........Gabe's teen friends came and their parents dropped them off.....and I was so happy for him and grateful some of his friends came.....he had a bunch that were on vacation and couldn't come, so I was concerned for him if the other kiddos didn't show.....and it made my heart so happy for him that they did........we had a good time, too much food left, of course lol:) but such fun! And that is maybe one of my biggest messages to women in my situation......to keep believing in yourself, not limiting yourself, and allowing your confidence to grow in the things that you thought you couldn't do before......or maybe not even thought you couldn't....just maybe felt it would be hard......that is where we can all foster confidence......we maybe forget as adults? We know for our children that is true.......helping our children learn to walk or ride a bike.....or tackle some challenging work of childhood or life.......watching that confidence blossom....and I guess maybe that is how I have felt as of late......child like in my exploration of life on my own......living on my own terms and not wanting to count myself out of anything.......so this party was a challenge I set my sights on.....to see what I could do.....and to continue to do the things I have always loved to do on my own......and work on continuing to foster that confidence in myself and in the power of my new life!
jperuso
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