Midway.......

So tonight marks the halfway point for my women's series, and I feel like it has been going really well! I feel like it could benefit so many women, and the topics are so relevant, it is just a matter of getting people to step out a little outside of their comfort zones and check it out! I know it will grow as it goes and I am loving our group of ladies so far, and some more women may join us tonight too: ) As I have said the topic tonight is mindset. I have lots prepared in regards to that topic, and how to implement things into your own life......thinking of it being applied to how you live your life and applied to a specific situation......in preparing for tonight, and how mindset now pertains to my day to day, I was thinking back at the other times it has served me well, and I thought of Gabe instantly.....when I had him I felt completely overwhelmed by all of it.....in the NICU days.....and when we finally came home.....just completely pushed to my limits.....and once I adjusted to the reality of it all, and not fighting it so much, it became much better.....but the real pivotal thing, the life changing shift, was when his diagnosis came.....and there was a real choice there.....one that totally surrounded mindset.....to either embrace what is or focus on what isn't.......and I have seen families do both, and the experience is completely different.....if I had stayed in all of the stuff that Gabe may miss out on due to his Williams Syndrome......or focus on the negative aspects of it all, and stay there, my experience would have been totally different......the only choice I had......in my mind, was look toward the sun......and find the joy, the hope, and the gifts......I mean what else is there????......and the shift in mindset has been life changing......I have been able to enjoy him and revel in his life and his love for nearly 16 years.....not focusing on grief of what may or may not happen for him too often.....the reality I embraced pretty early on, is that Gabe feels no grief about who he is......he has never known any different life and he truly loves his life with his whole heart.....so who would I be to focus on all that stuff......will he get married? Will he drive? Will he be able to live on his own? Will he......will he.......the questions are endless and you can become lost pretty quickly, and it can threaten to steal your joy......so instead I try with all I can to focus on what is right there.....right in front of me.....and have for quite sometime.....and it feels so much better......I am not saying I never find myself in that other space......because I do every once in awhile......but I do not stay there long and I focus on the light.....always.....and when Gabe is your son that is not difficult to do at all:) But he was most definitely my first teacher when it came to the power of mindse,t and I have been taking his lead ever since:)