Perspective - a particular attitude toward or way of regarding something; a point of view. It is so important.........important particularly when you are dealing with a situation that has so many layers, and requires so much care. Unfortunately I am dealing with people that do not share the perspective I have, not even a little bit.......and the perspective that they share is a warped one with no basis in truth, a perspective that lacks the spirit to move forward in a real way........it is beyond frustrating.......I cannot adequately put it into words, the level of frustration it brings......but I will try ;-). LOL.....yesterday I had the opportunity to hear some of their perspective and it is borderline alarming to me.......and it is not in a "I am right way" and "they are wrong".....that isn't what I am trying to convey......it is in an altered sense of reality way.......no reality has found them to bring with it some wisdom and clarity.......just a storm of dysfunction and stormy waters......and it just makes me........sigh..........it is so challenging.........and when I am faced with it.......right up in my face.......the power I have is not in the trying to impart logic and reason to the situation......that is a futile endeavor......a waste of brainpower and breath........what I must do in that situation......is take a deep breath and exhibit my self control superpower.........the one that tells me that closing my mouth.....not responding to a text.......is the better way.......for everybody involved......but mostly for me and my peace.......I will not allow anybody to rob me of that.......not even for a minute........the amount of self control I had to exhibit yesterday made me feel like the skies should open and glitter should come raining down to celebrate my restraint LOL:)........like truly.........I can do hard things.....but geez........;-). So as I sit here this morning reflecting......wondering what my next move should be in this giant game of Chess that I currently play from time to time.........I believe that giving a situation room to breath and trying to gain some perspective, and be thoughtful with how I proceed is the better way.......always......being caught up in a moment never bodes well for anybody.....and I won't sink.......each time I am faced with it I will rise.......I just will......because the stuff that is on the line is too precious.......and that is what stays in the forefront of my mind........so each time I pray to find the right words......to have my message received in the spirit it is given and for it to be really heard.......I pray to continue to have strength to stay out of storms that don't belong to me.......I pray that he will find himself again.......gosh do I pray so hard for that.......that he comes out of the fog and finds clarity again and becomes the dad he needs to be.........I walk in my intuition, in the things I know to be true in this life........to remain above all things true to me no matter how many bombs are thrown in my direction......or how many cheap shots I take.......I won't lose myself in that ever........I just won't.........perspective.......it is so so important in this life......we gain it each and every day.......driving us.......leading us....... asking us to do the next hard thing........and that is what I am committed to doing........every single day
jperuso
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