Last night was the second session of my series.....I had to make it last night because of conferences on Monday....and it is such a lovely group of women.....and yesterday I had a rougher day than I have in a long time, under the weight of all that was happening with Mads.....and hurting for her.....and the energy was definitely wonky out there yesterday....some of the women felt that same way.....but once everybody was gathered in my living room, it all began to take hold.....the space we all occupy.....making the effort to connect and pour into ourselves.....and sharing with each other....and holding space for each other.....being seen and heard....it is really that....I think that that is powerful.....so we talked some self care last night and the session ended up heading in a different direction some for a little bit, and it just went where it needed to.....and something about being in the company of women committed to themselves and their journey....and the power that is found there....it is funny I have said it before.....there have been times in my life where the idea of "too much" women, or like rah rah empowerment women stuff was hard for me to identify with....and I was so domesticated that I didn't really get it.....but now I do......becoming a little more feral in my new life lol;-) and understanding the challenges that women face......that those challenges are real....and very particular to being a woman......and wanting to empower women in this chapter of my life and continue to empower myself.......and once upon a time that would not have appealed to me....or maybe not so much appeal, but would not have resonated so deeply like it does today.....and now it sits and resonates deeply in my soul.........and then I received such a gift last night.....there was a little girl in my class that was very quirky last year......she used to do all sorts of odd things....and often lived in her own world much of the time....and I fell in love with her quirky little self.....and I see her in the hall all the time this year and always say hi......she is in 5th grade now, and was asked to pick an influential woman to make this paper about.....filling in all of the details about them.....and she picked me......ME......and even remembered my birthday on her own to fill in.....and it touched my heart so.......having her realize, despite often not looking as if she is realizing what is going on, that I was in her corner.....and to be called an influential woman, even by a 10 year old is kinda something;-) for me it is confirmation that I am on the right path......doing my best to make a difference where I can....and impart change where it needs to be.......and my women's series group is starting to solidify, and relationships are forming, and a community is building......and I am just so so grateful for all of it....to be placed right where I am....feeling inspired to do the things that I am.....having them resonate deeply.....and to be equipped to keep doing them.....this new path has been such a blessing to me....and I want to continue to find women that just need somebody to have a little belief in them....women that need some space held for them to become whatever they want to be.....to remember that they are allowed to have a place in their lives.....that nurturing themselves should be on the list of things they nurture......that their hopes and dreams matter.......just as much as everybody elses, and that motherhood doesn't mean they have to give up all of the other parts of our lives.....that they can have it all......if they implement certain things.....so yeah......continuing to feel inspired this morning.....and my session last night filled my cup.....and helped settle my energy after a challenging day.....and I am excited to see where our journey continues to go:)
jperuso
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