As I have said it has been a busy week and weekend! But fortunately I have found time to have a few visits in between, some fun, and to catch up with some people. Friday I had a friend come and we stayed up pretty late and had a great visit......Yesterday I still had much to do for the party, and another friend had invited me to her house last night for a party.....and when I woke up on little sleep I was thinking maybe I wouldn't go.....thinking I was tired with still so much to do.....but she texted me in the morning again saying that she hoped to see me there......and so my decision was made, I was going to go:).....while all this was happening, little did I know another woman was wondering too if she was going to make it to my friend's party, not sure if she was coming......so I did my chores and then got to the party.....I was having a great time.....meeting such nice people......and the woman I mentioned above sat down next to me as well as another woman across from us and we talked most of the night......about so many things......and some of my divorce stuff came up......what I am doing now.......just these little things here and there......and I sense the woman sitting next to me getting most of what I was saying deeply but she was not saying too much......but I could feel her sisterhood energy........and then at the end of the night it comes out that she is where I was......standing on the cliff before she watches her marriage implode.......right before the jumping off point.........the free fall........knowing she is at the end......and not sure how to feel or what to think about it.......and I tried to impart as much hope and comfort to her that I could in that moment.......not being able to say to her that it won't be wildly painful, or that there is a way to avoid that part......because there just isn't......but that she will be OK.....she really will be.....and she said such kind stuff to me, about how inspired she was to listen to what I was saying and how we were meant to meet..... and I felt that both of us made our way to that spot against all odds.......because we almost didn't come.......and she was telling me that she could tell how at peace I am just from watching me speak and the smile on my face and how I was the whole night.....that she had been watching.....and I cannot even begin to describe the power in that.......a complete stranger feeling how I feel on the inside.......feeling the gifts I have been given, and having them find their way on the outside.......to help another human.....wading through heartache too.......and as all of it came out......it made me know with a deep certainty that it was a divine appointment for us to meet.......our paths were meant to cross.....and I was placed there to use my pain for purpose......to share my testimony randomly to a stranger, to touch somebody's else's life, without realizing I was doing so until the end of the night.....I ended the night offering to help this woman in any way I can and hoping to get together again, and offer my support........and it just felt so good......good to be placed somewhere where I was needed, and where my testimony was needed.......and being strong enough to offer that support to another, steady in my healing.....and ready for what's next.....my favorite hymn is "Here I am Lord".......and that is how I am feeling on this Sunday morning......that I will go wherever he leads.....and be happy to serve whoever I meet along the way......feeling grateful this morning and excited for the party:). Have a great Sunday everybody....:)
jperuso
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