Dating sites I mean.....lol:) Like how on earth can it be so difficult to meet somebody to go on a date with........I have spoken many times of my reticence toward dating.....and being unsure of what I am ready for....... or wanting....... all of it.....but I do feel ready to go on a date, that I am certain of....... and I have only remained on one truly free site......not willing to throw money away any longer to just scroll through profiles;-) But it is so challenging.....and it appears, like me, that the men on those are feeling the frustration too......tired of women not being serious about dating, or ghosting them, or catfishing.......all of it.......and mostly I write this as a musing.....just shedding light on something that is......not taking it too seriously at all, because the truth is I am very steadfast in the notion, that what is meant for me, will never pass me by......no matter what......there is no mistake in that......so my not making a connection on this site.....not finding a date, is for a reason.......not my time.......but in the meantime it is wildly entertaining and confusing......to see SO many people congregated in a spot......but not connecting still somehow......like how can that be?? LOL. It is actually a little bit how I felt when I went out with the girls at the bar.....a room full of people, and I still felt kinda disconnected, except for the friends that I was out with.......but this entire train of thought leads me to the notion that there has to be a better way.......because most people in my situation don't like dating sites, like at all......and I only know a few people that have actually made a real connection......or had a successful story.......Perhaps it is an issue to look at????......ways to help singles connect in a more connection sense......I know our area doesn't have speed dating, but that idea seems more plausible.......facing a person......feeling their vibe.......all of that........so for now I am truly amused by it all......marveling at the complex nature of what should be relatively simple.....based on the odds and the amount of people out there;-) I guess I believe that if the avenue to meet your person is online, the events and situations in your life will place you there.......otherwise it will be a random event that will place you right where you need to be.......in the meantime for me.......between now and serendipity;-) I will continue to enjoy my life, and not take any of it too seriously........enjoying this sacred time in my life......my single time......the space in between.......because the truth is I know I won't be single forever.....I know very clearly there is a man in this life waiting on me......and my kids.....and one that will make me realize clearly why I had to go through the rest:) I can feel him out there.........and I also know I will miss this special time in my life maybe some......being the captain of my ship, charting my course......being in charge of it all.......so for now I enjoy all of that........the healing, the trusting, the growing, the adventure, the special time I now live in.......just me, myself, and I......we are having a pretty good time indeed:)
jperuso
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