My yard and all the outdoor stuff has been overwhelming me some this spring.....it is a decent size property with lots to be done......I have been mindful of just chipping away at it and doing what I can as I can......My dad came up yesterday and power washed some stuff for me.......my deck needed it, I will have to stain it in the fall......and my outdoor rugs and my gazebo top.....that was a huge help:)......So grateful for my parents........I then went to the work of tackling more of the leaves in my flower beds......and mowed some and blowed some leaves too......and it is getting there......feels like progress.......Gilly played outside, her brother is staying at the church this weekend with the youth group.....and then I took her out for ice cream.....and my parents came for dinner......and today when the sun shines again I will be back at it;-) and really most of the time I truly enjoy doing it all....it feels like something ........like accomplishment, and helps stoke the confidence I have in being on my own.......but sometimes all the stuff piles up and seems like so much.......I have been thinking of moving again lately......and it makes no sense on paper......I was lucky to snag a low interest rate still when I had to refi to buy him out......and rent well.....we all know how high that is:(......so staying put makes sense for now in that sense.....but my soul kinda feels that moving will happen at some point sooner than later......my kitchen is still a source of frustration......wondering how I will pull it off.....and at least get the ceiling put up.......but I try and default to my faith on that.......hoping the opportunity will present itself.......I finished hanging the pictures I got for my workout room yesterday.....and I love it! and then I switched my pictures in my downstairs bathroom.......the ones that had been there were of a bed and breakfast in upstate NY that my ex and I had visited.....and it was time for them to come down......it was a beautiful place, and I liked the pictures I had taken, but it was another milestone to remove them.......and add more of just me here......I put up sayings I really like to replace them.......and I guess I have truly staked my claim on every bit of this house......my mark......my sweat.....my work over all of it.....it has changed quite a bit since he left......and it feels good that I have done those things.....I never feel him here......I always spent my energy making this our home here.....so I always feel myself here and my kids.....I plan on heading to church........coming home, and once the sun comes out, I will finish putting my deck stuff up, some more chores.......then maybe get my kiddos out into the woods....and maybe rake some more;-) Happy Sunday everybody:)
jperuso
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