Is it Covid???

I am perplexed this morning.......Gabe's second Covid test came back negative......despite his symptoms being so similar to the last time he had it, and his being exposed to it recently?? I took him to the doctor yesterday though to help find him some relief, and I got nervous because he was complaining of a severe headache.......and they gave him another test, and think it may be a sinus infection, a wicked one? So he is starting an antibiotic.......and I am hoping it brings him relief.......my heart has ached for him the last few days.......he has not felt well at all.....and he is such a patient patient God love him......he has always been that way........so all of this is just a deep reminder to me that worry is an utter waste of our time and energy in this life......and I am so glad I have released that in this life.......I just don't worry very much at all anymore......what will be will be, and I trust that everything is working out......so I haven't spent the last few days worried about Mads and I getting Covid.......I have just continued doing our thing......taking care of our bodies, and vitamins, and accepting that this is where we are.......and if it turns out not to be Covid......and I had worried endlessly, I would have wasted my life.......and even if it is Covid, and I get it, still a waste........I am SO sensitive to worry in others now......it sorta pokes me some, and I am working on that.......I think it pokes me because I don't want to get sucked into their vortex, and have worked so hard to free myself of those chains........but I must step back and have compassion for where they are in their worry.......while keeping myself disconnected from their worry and the energy surrounding it......because I am fiercely committed to not wasting my life worrying anymore......I spent a good portion of my life, on and off, battling it.......and sometimes I won and sometimes I lost.......but every time it was a waste.......so instead when a situation comes up that would normally call for worry......I step back and trust.......and tell myself "everything is always working out for me" because it is........years ago I had pretty severe and crippling anxiety.....in my 20s.......and I did a lot of cognitive behavioral therapy and self talk.....and I believe it was the ground work for my life now.......remembering the power our mindset holds.....and the words we choose to use in our minds to ourselves and in our lives......and I suppose along the same lines as the inner coach blog I did......when you do that therapy you have to learn to talk yourself into a rational space......one that makes sense.....and it removes the power of whatever is plaguing you in the moment......and it works.......so these days my life is precious......I have some real living to do, making up for lost time, :)and I won't spend one moment wasting it on worry, I just won't:)