I had such an incredible experience yesterday speaking to an old friend.....He was somebody I had been close to for many years a long time ago......somebody I have known for a very long time and somebody that is close to some people I love a lot.......he has battled alcoholism for a very long time......some of the most severe alcoholism I have ever seen......he has tried so many times to get sober, only to falter and have his addiction come back even worse than it was before......each and every time......and it had gotten to the point where I feared there may be no hope for him......after all his trying and relapsing.....and my heart hurt for him because I understood that there was a part in him that desperately wanted to be sober.....yet he just couldn't quite get there......so it has been quite sometime since I had spoken to him or heard for him.......I am very close with his mother and she had been telling me how wonderful he had been doing, and it made my heart so happy for her.......because for years she suffered in the worry and sadness for him......and she has been so encouraged this time in his sobriety......as it has now been nearly 6 months......longer than many of the times he relapsed......in addition to her recognizing the shift in him......so through a random set of events he and I spoke on the phone yesterday for 4 hours!! I know right??? The kids were facetiming with their dad, and were on a long time as well so it just sorta worked......and the conversation he and I had was truly one that touched my heart and soul......he was so clear......working his 12 steps......understanding the journey......embracing the journey........understanding where he is headed......awake and grateful for where he is......surrendering to the process........so insightful....... all of it......and it was amazing.......amazing to think of the fact that is is never too late......nobody should ever give up........no matter how bad it gets.......there is always hope......always.......and he is digging himself out of a pretty large hole.......lots of years of neglecting his body and his spirit and he is fighting hard to regain ground.......and work toward health and toward feeling good again......and he is doing it......and he is doing it all alone.......he has no family around him right now........it is just him and his support system that he has created in his sobriety.......and he is using any and all resources that come his way to hold himself up and work his program......I have talked to him before when he was sober, he was sober for a pretty long time many years ago......and he was pretty good then and clear but not like this time......so I write about it today to give his journey some more power......putting it out there......giving it some strength to keep building......sending hope and gratitude into the atmosphere that THIS IS THE TIME.......the time for him to have a brand new life, one that he has always deserved......and one that I think he finally is believing he does too:)
jperuso
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