Yesterday in shear randomness I connected with a guy on FB dating.....we ended up chatting electronically much of the day......had an interest rhythm and flow going, and it always strikes me......the randomness of connection and where and how it comes......how I can scroll and scroll and not find anything that resonates for days, weeks, and months.....and then......not sure of what I think about it all......he does live relatively close, which would make an eventual date possible I suppose......we have lots of shared interests.....easy conversation......all of it.....but who really knows right?......I take all of online dating with a grain of salt......sort of as it is......and don't place too many hopes and too much stock into any of it.....not for fear of disappointment, just sort of as the realist I am;-) So for me and for yesterday it was the perfect little side venture......kids were with their dad......and I was pretty tired from Saturday night, so I was just kinda chilling most of the day.....watching the rain fall......so chatting with a random stranger was just what I needed lol:) it is a forever line I walk, the line between sort of looking for connection, and just feeling very satisfied in the space I occupy on my own......so round and round I go.....knowing the mixed messages I send to the universe.....knowing my beliefs in it all.....knowing that the man.......my man......the one meant for me, will find me in the most serendipitous of ways......I actually watched that movie the other night.......so good.......and I believe in stuff just like that.....that who and what is meant for you will never pass you by.......you will never be without it.....and what isn't meant for you will continue to fall away......so I never worry about any of it.....I just welcome the experiences and randomness as it comes.....and it was interesting to get to know a new human......and find out about their inner workings some......learning some of their story.......however it is in my belief and understanding of it all that I find peace.....knowing that whether I choose to stay on FB dating or not, that will not affect my ability to meet my guy......it just doesn't.......as long as I follow my intuition.......my inner guidance.....the little voice inside of me.......I cannot go wrong.......so we shall see what happens or doesn't with Chris......and I will continue to stay open and entertained by the possibilities that lie around every corner!
jperuso
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