So those people that know me knew I would have a blog post about Gratitude......at some point.....not surprising right? It is sorta my thing and has been for a LONG time........was thinking about it and trying to remember how long and I don't know......when it started, how it started, or any of it........My nature doesn't allow me to dwell in darkness for too long.....it won't allow me to have a long pity party, or to ask over and over again "why me?" Because really why not me???? I am not any more deserving or less deserving of another to suffer in this life........However that is not to say that those moments have not come for me......they do, and have been especially pronounced the last few days......I have been in the thick of it.......like in a deep and powerful place of stormy weather......stormy weather that is threatening to swallow me whole....weather that is forcing me to fight with all I have got to stay above.......to stay TRUE to ME........However one of my strengths, and a powerful tool in my arsenal is to find the GRATITUDE in ALL things......truly........even in the troubled times in my life..........I am a BLESSED person......There is no doubt about that.......I have so much, and so many beautiful things in my life.......I have the most amazing and precious children, they are such a gift to me each and every moment of my life.........I have such a loving family, supportive in all the right ways......all the ways I need......all the ways that fill me up....... I also have terrific friends, that are rooting for me every step of the way........I live in the house I have always dreamed of, I love living here, truly, and feel grateful every time I come home.........I am healthy and strong, and I am grateful to be getting even healthier and stronger in all ways each and every day........ I have deep spiritual strength and God has provided courage and faith for me to lean on on those days I feel weak, absolutely crucial to walk this journey...........I have some angels in my life at the moment that are willing to talk whenever and about whatever comes to me.......what a profound gift to give another human........I have everything I need and have for as long as I can remember......I am keenly aware that at any point I could be far worse off than I am.......That I am not put upon......that even though I feel I did a lot right in my marriage and worked so very hard, the fact that it has ended doesn't make me any less grateful for the experience........because as the days unfold I am aware that my husband may just end up being the greatest gift to me......he gave me these amazing children I am blessed to raise, he gave me some really great years of marriage, lots of beautiful memories and fun times to carry in my heart, but most importantly as his final parting gift he gave me the largest gift of all........the gift of setting me free and being the largest catalyst of change in my life to date.........a life I am clawing my way to.......in the end what doesn't kill you makes you stronger but what you are not grateful for gets lost on you.......none of this is lost and neither am I..........
jperuso
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