Madeline's business fair was a giant success! It was well attended, and the kids did awesome, so many cool ideas out there. Mads nearly sold out and had a great day! The humidity was fierce but the rain held which was awesome:) So as the day came to an end I raced home to take Gabe to follow his bliss:) He is staying at the church for two nights and doing his training for becoming a counselor, for Vacation Bible School.....and it has been his bliss since we started attending Holy Trinity......and for me to have a place he can go where he can be more independent, and be on his own a little bit is such a gift......I am hoping he knows to change his underwear there each day lol:). I reminded him a few times beforehand;-) They are headed to Camel Beach today to hang for a bit and then do more training......I pick him up tomorrow morning:) And it feels so good to see my kids happy and living their lives in the ways they want to and in ways that bring bliss to their hearts....I had written many times about my heartache in watching them suffer so.....every day for so long.....and it helps to see them both doing so well and finding the places that are meant to be a part of their journey......Gabe is finding a way to be where the teens are at every turn......through all the sports he joins, and his love of our church and the amazing youth found there......that part of his life abounds! It makes me so happy for him.....and I don't know what his adult life will look like, and sometimes that thought makes me wanna crawl under the covers and hide lol, but I trust like I do with my own journey, that his will unfold exactly as it should.......it certainly has so far......and I think that that is a good reminder as a parent.....and my new understanding of my faith, and astrology, and my journey allows me to trust my own life so implicitly but also my children's lives......even after their dad left, and watching them slayed by that heartache, and feeling slayed in the watching of it.....I still understood early that that impact was supposed to be a part of their story.....a catalyst in their own evolution.....even though I would never have chosen it, and it was excruciating to watch.....I truly believe that with all that I am, and it makes it more palatable somehow.....all of it....and sometimes so exciting......to see what shows up around the corner.....I am becoming more and more excited about those things.....seeing what shows up....and for Gabe that has been endless things that bring him such joy and happiness......he is becoming so handsome and grown looking.....and I am so proud of him.....proud of the life he is helping to create.....proud of how sweet and kind he remains.....and thoughtful.....yesterday he touched my heart....I had him stay at the booth while I went to get the car to load up....and Mads was with her friend getting a piece of pizza across the parking lot.....and he was asking where she was, and told me to go get her to stay with him while I went:) They are forever looking out for each other.....it happens daily.....and their relationship is so so special and touches my heart every day! I am excited today, have some coaching to do, and then Mads and I have some girl stuff going today, we think pedicures may be in order;-) Enjoy the day! :)
jperuso
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