I shared a meme recently about shouting out to all the single ladies that want to date but stay home, hoping for prince charming to break in;-) and it is funny but tongue in cheekish........lol :) because the truth is some days I think that is what it will take;-) I truly marvel at the single people I know, and how they date endlessly and find people to date on dating sites.....it is so rare for me to feel compelled to connect with a profile, let alone actually meet up.....yet some people are doing it, and doing it a lot......and it is funny because all of it brings me back to other times in my life where I felt a little abnormal....maybe?? Not sure if that is the right word......but who I am deep inside, and how I view and live in the world is not designed for online dating......not even a little lol:) it seems people on there feel the same some.....lots of lamenting in their initial blurb about themselves, about the complications of it......people not responding once you match.....never wanting to meet up......people looking for hook ups only......or lying about who they are......and the truth is people's attention spans are short, because another person better and brighter than you is just one swipe away......so nobody is really invested I suppose......sort of like a past time......like it is for me.....not any skin in the game.....nothing needing to be ventured.....so nothing really gained.....and everybody is so far away besides.....the profiles that catch my attention and spark up any convo end up with men that live further away......so there is that too.......and so all of it leaves me feeling like an old fashioned gal trapped in 2023 dating........and the truth is I won't ever meet anybody in my living room either;-) and I have said it before.....and mean it.....I love my life as is right now.....am content.....not in NEED of anybody, but I am keenly aware of my readiness for some of it.....and need to make some moves toward making it happen......so I have tentative plans to go out this weekend.....like really go out......where people are and men lol:) with a friend and see what I see.....kids are with their dad......but I suppose what made me write about it, is how unnatural it feels to me.....all of it........I remember thinking that in my marriage, that if my marriage ended, being cast into the dating world in my 40s would be a special kinda you know what......and I wasn't wrong about that;-) and what overrides this entire train of thought.......is my awareness of the knowing......that serendipity will rule all of this for me......I know that deeply......I forever walk the line between trusting my journey.....and taking my intuitive nudges that move me near the places I need to be, to have that journey play out:) There needs to be both for it to work......and I have seen that happen thus far.....as I listen to nudges, and make moves, things come into my experience that are meant to be there......so this will be the same......I know that.....so my nudge is nudging for me to leave my house Saturday night, ironically my former wedding anniversary, that would be funny to meet my guy on that date right?? So I will get out among the people, that is what I shall do......and when I am led to scroll and swipe I will do that too;-) Trusting that HE is out there......I can feel him.....and I know he will arrive at the perfect time......I trust that will all my heart......and in the meantime working on myself each and every day is not a bad way to wait:) And working on my energy surrounding all of it and the surrender that is needed each day!
jperuso
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