Is free will free?? That is a question I think of lately.....or maybe for awhile.....free will implies that we can make decisions that change the course of our lives.....the choose your own adventure metaphor that I always think of......turn to page 60 and visit the jungle.....or page 82 and head to the beach.......I used to love reading them......and it felt as if each time I chose............ something amazing was found.......and I have been opened up to a whole new world now, and as I continue to live in this space the synchronicities and divine nature of it all is impossible to ignore ......through my life's experiences.....so it seems to me that my free will is just playing out what is meant for me if that makes sense? And that it would be impossible to avoid what is supposed to be in my story even if I tried to go rogue, and buck the system, flashing my free will all over the place lol:) And I will give you an example so you don't think I am crazy ;-) I have an astrology app now that I love.....and it is pretty accurate, and insightful, and I have fun with it.....but on October 2nd it mentions my specific transits, and that I am set to be publishing something or putting something cathartic out into the world.....and that is the day the collaborative book is set to be published.....and out in the world.....and my chapter will be published......and there were a lot of actions.....motion.....circumstance that led me to this book and the writing of my chapter......I had my original women's series.....way back in the beginning.....and a few ladies came....I crossed paths with a woman there that came, meeting her for the first time.....and we became FB friends......she posted about this book opportunity down the road after that....it spoke to me.....and I filled out the form but it glitched and didn't work....so I laid it down....feeling it wasn't for me....but it was in my inbox again, and it worked, and spoke to my heart....and then there it was.....but I guess what I am marveling about this morning is how it all works.....amid free will.....because I do believe in that too....and maybe it feels as if I don't have much free will lately since I can feel my journey so clearly........feeling more in alignment than I ever have felt........and it feels like there is no way I could avoid any of what is meant for me, even if I wanted to or tried to.....that it would find its way to me no matter what.....I have tried to exert my free will in another situation in my life over and over, and it still found me and worked out against all odds and efforts to have that not be so;-).....and free will seemed unable to penetrate it lol:) And I am now glad for that but for awhile it was almost comical.....SO.......I don't know what I think this morning.....I mentioned that the more I learn, and as my spiritual life expands the freer I feel.....to trust it all.....so for me this is an unfolding......of discovery.....or being open.....of being willing to challenge my beliefs or learn new things, or feel my way to new philosophies and notions....and it is endlessly fascinating to me.....and as things unfold my understanding becomes deeper.....and my awareness stronger.....seeing the seemingly random moments that are not that at all:) Have a great day! :)
jperuso
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