I have touched on this in many of my blogs. My certainty in the path ahead and my understanding that it was all divine appointment.....that the night my world came crashing down was most definitely a means to an end....a rebirth.....I was reborn on January 7, 2021.....and in rebirth there is struggle and pain....even if it is for a greater good....one I did not understand as I wept on that Thursday night.....and in the days that followed........one that I didn't fully understand in the excruciating days that followed....but one I am starting to understand.....I definitely don't fully, but I believe one day it will be clear........ but I am most definitely starting to see the places in my life that were missing.....really crucial pieces and places where a soul....one like mine most certainly needs......and as I am becoming aware of those missing pieces and finding ways to fill them I feel more and more calm and peaceful......the peace comes from knowing that I am standing right where I need to be and the universe is assisting me each and every step of the way.....I have always had strong intuition in this life, particularly with my kids and the people I love, and I have to say now my intuition is the strongest it has ever been.....leading me to all the places that are meant for me.....all the stops on the road trip I am on.....making it clear what exits I need to hit along the way....where the pit stops are that need to be made.....and which places draw me in.....I am relying on myself to do all the things.....all the things that are meant for me.....the things that light me up and make me feel ALIVE......like TRULY ALIVE........I feel so alive these days it is intoxicating in all the best ways.....I am in tune with the deepest parts of myself......my needs and desires in this life.......all the places in me that make me feel happy and make me feel that I am on the right path.......it is so exciting....so while I never would have chosen this way.....this path... the end of our life together.....not ever.........it most certainly was chosen for me in the most wonderful and loving way by God and the universe......I truly was set free from things I did not understand.....cut loose to LIVE.......to really LIVE......and potentially love again and find out WHO I AM outside of a marriage that was swallowing me whole.....swallowing me whole without me even knowing it was........and the absence of it was the only thing that could bring that fact into CLEAR focus.....and it truly wasn't always that way.....but it most definitely became that way....and in the absence of the recent years and our life together.....I found ME........standing in the ashes with a smile on my face.......a smile that I can't seem to shake because my body is vibrating with the hope and promise of my new life ahead.......
jperuso
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