Dating sites.........

I have written some about them before, but they are such an interesting place to discuss in more detail;-)......I have been more a spectator more than anything else.....sort of scrolling.....reading and looking.......and it is a really hard way to meet somebody, even though you would think it easy.....there are lots of available men......lots of ones messaging but yet.....not so easy or simple......but entertaining:) It is fascinating to me to read some of the profiles or what people put out there or say......my first "match" was a guy I hit it off with, but it was moving too quickly on his end, and we hadn't met and it spooked me, and he was not suited for me either......spoke with another guy via their chat who had gone through a similar thing to me, but then got really intense, angryish, and judgmental about my feeling like I am in a good place after mine, because he took years to recover from his....and he seemed angry at the fact that I had found some joy and peace in my life......so he was not my guy LOL:) then I had my match date which was nice but platonic in nature as soon as we met......and I recently messaged a little with an architect that seems interesting but no kids, and I am not sure that would ever evolve.......my point is that I have not decided to respond much to banter when offered......sort of reserving my energy for something that jumps forward in a way that grabs my attention.....but it is few and far between......I know people meet their mates on dating sites.....I have seen it happen, and it is convenient for a person who doesn't get out much, like me, LOL:) But the likelihood is slim I suppose that whoever is meant for me will be found there......and I feel no such panic or urgency to make it otherwise......my single life has become a really comfortable one......so much so that the thought of marrying again someday doesn't appeal to me......at all......at this time......the idea of sharing my life with somebody in a more casual and independent way does at this point, living separately, getting together when we can, doing fun things, having similar interests, being great friends, and then if it evolves beyond, that seems like that is just right.....too bad you can't order such things on a menu right?;-) That would make it so convenient......However I also believe in serendipity, DEEPLY.......and I know that while I may want to plan what occurs in my love life.....the universe and God will plan otherwise:) and whatever is meant for me will find me, even if the means seems challenging.......I do wish it were easier to just get dates, simple ones......not ones that lead to relationships necessarily.....just dinner.....or drinks....or hikes......and experience some of what is out there.....and as I said above, dating sites seem easy but they are not.......and I also own I am pickier these days.....no point in wasting time to some degree too......when you have been through what I have, you tend to know what you want......or at least what looks like what you are seeking......so there is that too......plus meeting strangers is sorta a weird thing......at least for me........but I suppose one of the things I have felt most proud of, since all this happened.....is my comfort in being single for the most part......there are things I miss greatly about being with somebody......but overall I am comfortable in my own company......and am enjoying the life I have created for myself and my kids......and as I have said I never thought I would ever feel that way......always felt I was a party of two person.....but turns out you can be lots of things when you shatter any of those limiting beliefs we all hold, or the notions we collect about ourselves that are just not true......so while I let serendipity and the magic of the world do its thang......I will enjoy my freedom and try and master the art of dating LOL:). Wish me luck;-)