Consistency.......

As time travels on I realize more and more how much I like consistency.....in my day to day, and in the people in my life.....I feel like it is one of my strengths....being able to create it around me, and provide it to others, and I yearn for the same sometimes......like a rock steady consistency all around me that gives me the same feeling I try and give the people in my life......but I know that life ebbs and flows.....and that consistency doesn't come easily to others....but it really is the way, to so many things....so much of the good stuff.....the consistency of my habits has paid off consistently lol;-) And a lack of consistency is something that my Taurus doesn't enjoy.....and we are all unique for sure....and certain stuff resonates more deeply than others....for me, due to consistency being relatively easy for me to implement in my life in all directions....I do.....my kids like that about me.....my students.....my family and friends....and I give it to myself.....but a few times these week through the tumultuous nature of it.......I was so wishing it would find me in other people......that same consistency....and maybe it is unrealistic.....we cannot expect ourselves from others....right?? And I say none of this to say I am flawless, and perfect....not in the least....I am just referring to one piece.....a piece I feel like I do well.....and wish for it too......and it is what makes me uncomfortable in my relationship with my ex and his girlfriend.....the lack of consistency....not so much with the kids, but with the relationship in general.....and as I type this it is maybe my need to figure stuff out.....to meet a conclusion.....to find an answer....that is in me for sure.....so when that cannot be achieved it knocks me on my pins....tipping my boat.....and making me uncomfortable.....but I will say this....embracing change.....is hard for a Taurus......like super hard....and I really feel like I have grown so much in that area and pushed past so much of that.....my ENTIRE life has changed.....and I don't mind change and flux nearly like I once did......I try and embrace what comes.....and what goes.....and embrace the changes that find me and my life.....and view them as an adventure and not an intrusion.....case in point.....I can become stagnant.....doing the same routine endlessly and never tiring of it.....and while that can be good.....it can also be problematic.....and I need to more mindful of stagnation.....switching stuff up intentionally....and I am working on that....it is why I keep all of my useful things around instead of purging more than I have;-) there is a logical and rational and routined part of me that is deep! And this week's stuff made me realize.....that I seek to have consistent beings in my life....that have my back in the ways I have theirs.....that mean what they say, and do what they say.....and it is my expectation now that that is how it goes.....and being the "consistent one"......sometimes finds others taking advantage of that luxury....and that can be frustrating.....so I am trying to embrace the consistent parts of me.....utilizing it for good....and to my benefit....but also growing in the ways I need to to embrace change and evolution! Life requires both indeed!