Truth is in the world we currently all reside in.....COVID is indeed an inevitable part....the likelihood of us crossing paths with it is likely, and we can only hope that when we do our bodies are strong enough to do their thing.....I feel peaceful about that for me.......but it doesn't diminish the concern about it......it is nothing to be toyed with for sure.....serious in all the ways, and I don't discount any of its power......or its capabilities......but I knew in my heart it would cross my path one day.....and that the likelihood of my finding myself at the end of the pandemic without getting it was highly unlikely......so here I am.....staring it in its eyes....turning around to face it...finally..........after spending the better part of over 2 years doing my best to avoid it if possible......and I did.....so now I feel like the knock came on my door and I answered it and here it was......and I have said before and believe very clearly that I am healthier than I have ever been in all my life.....so now is the time if there was ever such a thing....the right time to get it......so far I do really feel OK.....some minor congestion....some nose burning which is weird.....and some mild fatigue......I will take it.....I am hopeful the trajectory will continue this way and in a week or so I will be back to my life doing my thing....bursting with antibodies:) Truth is I have felt so good physically, this past year......that I have been reluctant to get the vaccine.......there are some reasons that make sense to my heart, I feel it super strongly........ and it has been a difficult decision but one I have made peace with. My instinct to hold off awhile, for myself and the kids has been so strong, there really was no way to go against that......so I had to accept that that was my intuition on it for myself and my family, that it was stepping forward like all the other things I feel, and let go of the rest......and I have had.....doing everything in my power to make us all as strong as I possibly could....and Gabe has done beautifully with it.....he is definitely on his way to back to normal.........I too feel OK this morning......some congestion being my primary symptom at the moment and I think I will lose my sense of taste and smell so weird...;-), I pray that it stays this way.......and I fully understand how unpredictable it can be......I am making a tele visit today to chat with the doctor and see what they say.....and sharing my not getting the vaccine is hard for me......people are super passionate about it and judge others for not doing it.......I can only be true to myself at every turn, like all parts of my life.....and this has been something that my instincts have been strong on, and I cannot help it, just like for other people they felt strongly that it was for them...... I was waiting on COVID to come knocking at some point......and knowing I had to be true to my feelings and instincts even if was uncomfortable.......I was feeling its energy lurking about preparing to come and visit us at some point......and there is a real sense, for me that once it has arrived, that it has come bearing some relief.......like here it is, now let's face it and do our best to find our way on the other side......that is the plan:) This entire situation in my life has challenged me more than almost any other.......the pandemic has really been a huge theme in my life in so many ways......with Gabe being my primary concern at every turn.....hard hard decisions needing to be made over and over.........so to be in the position now to exhale a little bit for him and soon for myself is a gift.......I trust the journey, even this......there is something to be learned in all the seasons of our lives.....especially the challenging ones......I am listening for the lesson........and taking as good of care as I can of myself while doing just that:)
jperuso
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