I feel like maybe more than ever this is important......and that there may be two sides of it all....those that think the world is sad, and doomed, and are angry......and ones that believe in light, love, and hope.......and that the world is more of a beautiful place than a flawed one......and I suppose at any given point our vantage point materializes itself in our experience.......what we think is what plays out in front of our eyes.......the world is battling to have a consciousness prevail collectively right now........I really feel that way.......like the battle between light and darkness.......love and hate.......all of it..........and it is so important to protect our energy......believe that that energy is sacred and is not up for grabs to just anybody.....I have expressed that before....but what if we can't help it? What if we are subject to somebody's energy at work or elsewhere and we cannot break free from them? A captive audience if you will......I have a situation sort of like that......a person I must be around some and who's energy is rough.....heavy, negative, and intense.....and it is a good lesson for me......and a good test.....in my old life I would have allowed this person to drain me.....let myself become focused on what they were doing......let it rob some of my life in the feeling of it all.....would have tried to fix or help this person shift, while they sucked the life right out of me......... I also would have been conscious of their energy.....but not like I am now.......it is almost intolerable and painful in the place I am in my life.......I make intentional and deliberate decisions now in my day to not subject myself to just anything.....and absorb all that ickiness.......protecting what happens outside of me and what gets in.....but as I said in this situation I am captive some......so I was thinking of it last night.....this person is resistant to having things reframed for them from negative to positive......shooting down any mention of such stuff......more comfortable to lament and wallow.......but laying that sorrow down heavily on others.......a person more comfortable with problems than solutions........and that is a tough to be around....and this person has had immeasurable tragedy, so my heart leads with compassion......always.......but also an understanding of the fact that this Jenn is not responsible for suffering on someone else's behalf.....not required to take on other people's stuff and carry it or make it my own.....so I walk the line in between my empathetic nature and my boundary setting stuff, knowing a balance can be found.....we cannot control the energy around us for sure.....but we can make small changes that mitigate some of the harm that they can do......adjusting some to make it work.....I guess my point in writing about this today is that this person has been more intense as of late and it brought it to the forefront of my mind, and as we head into the holiday many people will be mixing energies, and some of it may be fabulous, and some may be challenging......and I suppose as long as we remain conscious of our own energy and vigilant about the rest we can navigate all the energy that flows our way! Protect your energy y'all:)
jperuso
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