A fun fact about my Mads is that she wishes I was a little younger of a mom.....she worries that since I had her at 40, I may not be at all of her key moments of life....and I always assure her otherwise:) She used to ask me " Mom when I am________how old will you be?" but now she can provide those answers to herself.....and yesterday I had a couple of aha moments while we were hiking.....we did 6 miles yesterday.....we did Sand Beach, and the Ocean Path, and it was beautiful....still cloudy but still so beautiful....and Mads and I scaled down to the rocks below....and it occurred to me more than once that the shape I am in, and the fitness I have found, quite by accident I might add, has made all the difference......and allowed me to be the active mom I am......and all the difference in the kind of mother I want to be..... one that can keep up with my kids.....and we had a picnic in the park yesterday.....and the bathrooms were in sight of where we were but a little bit of a distance....and Mads needed to go.....so we started walking, and I said let's race....and we took off running and laughing and I had to really move to come up behind her and almost beat her;-) I let her win in the end....but we got in the bathroom, and were laughing and she was a little winded and breathing a little heavier and I wasn't AT ALL....and in that moment there is so much power......and it feels so good......to see evidence of my fitness so tangibly....and then we raced back, and she hugged me saying how fun it was and how much she loves me:) It touched my heart.....now I may not be able to change the events that led me to have a "late life" baby......but I can change what kinda mom I am to that baby:) Having Mads at 40 was lovely.....such a cool experience, to become a mom again, carrying some wisdom and age in tow.......and since Gabe's birth was so traumatizing when I was 30, it was almost like being a new mother again.......all new to me to just have it go exactly as planned....and my road to health and fitness was born on the wings of trauma and pain but it is a message I will never stop sharing......because I want everybody to find what I have....to feel how I feel......:) Yesterday was a great day that ended with a sinus ear thing getting a hold of me....I think it is the elevation and my allergies....so I am taking it easy today to gear up for our drive tomorrow! BUT still so very grateful for this amazing trip and for the health and fitness that has found me:)
jperuso
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