So I had written about the possibility of a biopsy on Valentine's Day, a hot date;-) but then on Wednesday the radiologist's office called and said that their radiologist had reviewed all my previous screenings and tests, and that he isn't sure that I have anything in there at all???:) So he wants me to go this morning to repeat the mammogram and a possible ultrasound to be sure, before they would put me through a biopsy.....and well that is a turn of events indeed.....and since the moment I found out about my breast, and the potential concern I have been calm and peaceful about whatever will come of it.....and this turn of events is exactly why worry is a waste.....I could have been fretting and worrying, which I have done in my life at other points, over things that never happen......and it would have been for no reason......but a step further is even if it ended up being something or is something, it is still for no reason......nothing to be done about it but to accept it all as it comes.....and often what we think something will be, and what it ends up being are two very different things.......or not like we think at all....so I am riding this breast wave wherever it flows.....trusting the outcome with all my heart......and moving forward with faith in my heart......I have long felt like radiology is a little subjective......and clearly this is an example of that......how one could see a calcification and how one isn't sure there is one at all???? Kind of crazy.......so I will go today and by the end of today have some clarity..... Gabe also got sick yesterday......I was folding laundry yesterday morning, and then I poked God in his eye;-), and thought to myself the kids are not sick and doing great, they will have a great weekend with their dad and I will have fun at the show on Saturday! And then the school called me in the afternoon to say that Gabe's throat had gotten really sore and strep was going around.......so yeah spoke too soon lol;-) So my mom had taken Mads for the night because my appointment is early this morning, and I took Gabe to the new Urgent Care in Port Jervis, it was such a pleasant and painless experience.......in and out! And he does have strep......so I got meds in him last night and this morning already.......so he should be on the mend soon......and his dad wants to see him anyway.....so I am hoping I can get him in good shape today to do that.......but again I didn't descend into madness over his being sick.....no point......and once upon a time I would have rolled down that rabbit hole a bit.....expending energy I didn't need to............Last night I just accepted it and did the things.......and it will work out.......it all does......Roosevelt was wise to say "the only thing we have to fear is fear itself"........it is indeed true......feeling optimistic as I roll into my mammogram this morning and trusting it all, every single day:)
jperuso
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