So yesterday morning I attempted to speak at the summit.....and I chose to use my phone, because it is comfortable for me, and what I use when I speak on my videos....and it worked fine the last summit I did.....and Verizon's service worked fine as well.....however what it has been doing in our area as of late, should have made me realize I could not depend on it..... and it dipped out, and did not stay connected....not once but twice......and then they needed to move ahead with another speaker, and I could have gone after him, but had to go to work.....there was a small window for me to make it happen....and well....sometimes you will have that??? It wasn't meant for me yesterday, and I just rolled with it.....I will have another opportunity soon, and other opportunities abound up ahead, so that is what I am keeping my focus on......I am going to work on speaking on my computer too.....and getting comfortable with that.....I am a creature of habit remember lol:) And I do what works for me and feels most like me.....and speaking in a more conversational space that the phone allows vs the computer sort of speaks to who I am......so......yea.....room for some growth as things expand for me, and I move forward in my journey.....I may need to get a camera too for my computer that is better and easier to work with too....so that is what I learned from yesterday....not everything works out....I know that....and you have to roll with it.....and it showed me a space for growth......and is forcing me to try new things to ensure that the next opportunity I get, won't be lost via tech issues! Conferences also went well yesterday, I chatted with a bunch of families.....always enjoying connecting with them..... and my student teacher had come and got to observe it all....and I think it was valuable for her too....I am enjoying working with her ....and sharing our time together this semester....she is eager to learn and helpful.....I was really encouraged yesterday too, as soon as I realized there was no way to save my shot....and I had to accept it, I did.....and that feels like freedom.....not staying stuck in the what isn't....but accepting what is.....my divorce taught me that once and for all....that lesson had been touching down in my life often.....and I would get pieces of it.......but this last big blow brought it home for me.....putting any energy into focusing on, or wishing for, what cannot be........ is as wasteful as worry....it just doesn't take us anywhere......sweet surrender:) I have talked about it so much, and there is no weakness in surrender, just freedom......so I will be ready the next time I get to take a swing and won't rely on Verizon to help me do so;-)
jperuso
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