A skip in my record.......

So I am coming up on four months of this journey and I am finding it necessary to find things that put a "skip" in my record......I have been honest and open with those that love me and have been able to share so many of my feelings with all of those kind people over these past few months.....sometimes the same feelings finding their way back around......and around......and around......and it is all normal I am sure......all necessary......but I am finding in this new chapter I am in that I need to find healthy things that give me respite from that record playing over and over and that give me a vacation from it all......I have found some of those things and it brings great relief........I am trusting anything that nudges my heart.....that points me in the direction my intuition is choosing.....trying not to overthink......to just let things be.......and in trusting what comes for me, more stuff for me shows up....presents itself......and makes itself known......it is so nice to quiet your mind and body enough to actually hear what it is saying.....to slow it down.....to trust what comes and what goes.......what stays and what leaves......what feels meant for you and what is not..........and in those spaces I get to decide what things I am choosing and what I am not.......what helps me forget, even temporarily what has occurred and gives me some safe haven........some respite......some peace......and as I choose things for me, I no longer worry about whether they need anybody's approval.......my approval is what matters in this life.....what I think of me........what I think of the decisions I make.....and there is true freedom in that space.....true power in choosing your path and making your way......so while I still am keenly aware that I have a gaping wound in my soul......I will keep trying on different bandages to stop the bleeding, even if only for a day......an hour......a moment......and trust that in those moments of respite my body can heal and that wound can start to close for good.....I have come a long way the last few months and sometimes I wish it was further, I feel impatient....wish it was quicker....but unfortunately that is not how this sort of thing works.......it requires consistent effort and care each and every day to move yourself past the next thing.....hit the next milestone.....keep moving forward......so I will continue to find ways to "skip" my record.....as I cannot listen to the song over and over on repeat forever and ever......and as I skip the record in the day and each and every day, I have faith that the song that has been playing endlessly will begin to fade into the background of my life.....