A powerful ending......

After my ex left four plus years ago it felt as if I had been shoved out of a plane without a parachute.....and I was watching my life speed by, free falling, and I was frantically trying to pick up the pieces as they whizzed past my face......and it was by far the most uncomfortable I had ever been in all of my life.....but flash forward to this morning and this moment, I have come to have deep affection, and regard, and I suppose even gratitude for when our lives take on a powerful ending....and the reason being is that I feel I now fully know and understand a secret....EVERYTHING is always working out for us, every single day....and when a door closes, or awareness and clarity arrives, or we come to a place where we can't unsee what we know any longer, it just means it is time to look forward expectantly, because what lies before us is far better than what we leave behind......I believe that with my whole heart.....in every part of my life. When you are committed to the work, and growth, and all of the rest so fiercely, what comes next will always be an upgrade.....it is inevitable.....and there is now a period on my love story.....and ending......and I am completely at peace with it.....because I have come to fiercely trust the journey, and because I am so clear on what I want, desire, and need....and it has been shown that this relationship no longer serves those things....and won't be able to. We want different things.....things that are incompatible in ways that cannot be overcome now.....so it is time....and as I close the door, and take one last look over my shoulder.....I am smiling....maybe even winking some;-) knowing I would not have done anything differently.....knowing that while it served me it did so pretty well.....that I got what I needed out of it for most of it....learning what I was meant to......and it was a divinely placed part of my journey....of that I have no doubt......and it has been with me in some capacity for a long time now.....a big part of my new life....either through our friendship or love.....and it makes sense that it would be vibrating out of my experience now, at least to me....I have grown and changed so much in the last 4 years, and work so hard on the evolution every day, willing to do the work, and when things don't grow and evolve with you, or they speak some to an older part of you that is no longer there, they can't stay.....And what strikes me this morning are many things.....but some of it lies in all of the beautiful lessons I am taking with me.....the clarity and awareness that has found me, the gratitude for being given the gift of love again in this chapter, and being able to feel that deep love and intimacy we shared while we shared it.....and knowing that those things are never things we should take for granted, no matter what.....and the time we spent together was a gift placed in my life at just the right time, and for the right amount of time....and now that time is done. The experience of deep magic we experienced with one another, under the light of our love. It really was so real while it lasted and special indeed. And on the other side what strikes me this morning is a deep anticipation and excitement about what lies ahead for me....what new chapter I am stepping into as I place this book on the shelf of my life......and bravely let go.......Knowing that I am starting a new story......knowing that love WILL find me again at some point up ahead.....I can't explain how I know that, but I do:).......and feeling so grateful for that love already .....and the fact that I GET to fall in love again in this life, at this stage of my life:) Wow! Who can be upset about that......what a gift.....and beyond future love, I look forward expectantly to whatever other gifts are up ahead in my life......I have been shown over and over the divine protection that reigns over my life, and been humbled by the grace and gifts I receive every day....so my energy lies in that mindset.....and in the meantime as I close this story with gratitude in my heart, and a smile on my face, I will continue to love me like it is my job.....because well it is ;-) and I will continue to grow, evolve, and heal in the ways I need to, to meet the next experience I am given up ahead....knowing that we get to be many versions of ourselves in our lives.....and become them as we need to, to live out the books and chapters of our lives.....and there is a knowing and excitement in my belly right now, that tells me that this ending needed to be to bring me to the places I need to go and to where I belong.....having outgrown the old and being brave to boldly evolve into the new. And what is deeply with me this morning is this....."Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened!" And that is what I will do! Happy Saturday y'all:)