A little piece of darkness......

I was reminded this week of a little piece of darkness I acquired a couple of months ago......an experience that I will have to carry some.....I have worked through it, and made peace with it.....but yeah some more darkness......and when we handle the pieces of darkness we carry, and shed light on them.....or transmute the darkness with the light we shine on others, that is the only way to combat the dark....darkness comes to find us all.....none of us are immune.....it is why I forever feel we should be kinder, more compassionate, and empathetic to each other......the human condition is real....and wrought with all sorts of stuff.....and we all are just doing our best on any given day to live in our stories....even though it may not look like it when people are looking in.....so this piece of darkness surprised me......and was totally unexpected....and I feel like I handled it the best I could, and moved on.....leaving it in the past......but it was a little trauma bump again......more of that to carry.....and I suppose it was also a catalyst to some degree....one that moved me, quite literally to where I was supposed to be.....forcing my change and movement......and maybe that is the point? Of all of the dark things we encounter....the moments....or situations, that cause us to pause and wonder, or cause us hurt and pain.....and I learned a lot from it, and still can't quite figure out what to make of it....but know that I likely never will......so I bring it up today to work through it some....but also to unite us all.....we all collect darkness along the way.....situations and moments that make us cringe or flinch to think of......ones we would not want to relive again .....or ones that came bearing heavy things in their wake.......and as long as we are honest with ourselves about the existence of those places....and work through them.....we can always overcome those pieces of darkness......it is when we hide the darkness away.....hiding it under a blanket.....trying to shove it in a closet.....not letting it breathe, that it becomes dangerous.....I am not sure why I had the experience I did......it seemed a little unfair considering....but again justice is a myth......a mirage.....life is wildly unfair often, and once we come to terms with that we are free:) Darkness divides and unites.....sometimes at the same time.....and while I have wished I could have been free of so much that has visited me....it has absolutely shaped my life, and my world, and brought me to this moment.....this one right here....and I believe that is the point....the contrast.....the catalytic nature, all of it:) And this moment I am in right now feels pretty good:)......I intentionally and faithfully look toward the light......seeking that in my day to day over the darkness....and there is a lot of light out there when you seek it....so this piece of darkness I endured will continue to be transmuted and alchemized among the rest....using the lessons in the wake to do that.....and shedding light upon it......and healing.......always healing......and knowing that up ahead that darkness may make sense some.......xo