I called the doctor yesterday and spoke with nurse.....and they had been closed which was why I hadn't heard from them before the scheduling person called from the mammogram place......I have some slight thickening on the right side and a focal asymmetry on the left......which could mean nothing, or could mean the type of breast cancer that took my favorite aunt's life years ago......however I have no masses or any concerning stuff beyond that, and it would be early indeed if that is how it goes.....so I am not worried.......I was able to get an earlier appointment next Friday, and until then I feel calm and settled.....I am trusting it will all be fine and maybe nothing to worry about at all.....I am staying off the internet and not reading anything, and feeling grateful I went when I did! It had been a little over a year because of how crazy things have been.....so I am glad I decided to schedule and not put it off any longer:) When Gabe was two I had an early melanoma removed from my shoulder......it was so scary for me at the time......because I had to wait a good amount of time between when the mole came off and was diagnosed as melanoma, and the time that I learned it was the earliest it could have been and that all would be fine......but if you read about melanoma it is very scary......and at the time I was so overwhelmed......but one thing I did promise myself was that I would not spend my life looking over my shoulder for it......waiting......letting it ruin my life.....I would be proactive and watch my skin, and be careful in the sun, and do my best......and I have......I caught one other spot intuitively a couple of years ago....that was suspect, but I caught before it turned and I will continue to trust......and trusting that the way it shakes out is the way it is to be.....and that I can trust my intuition to guide me and lead me to tests when I need them, and action when I need it.......So I am grateful to have some more information and feel some relief that nothing too crazy is going on.....and that the nurse reassured that she has seen that report in others and it is fine too.....and for the testing of my faith......it really is a gut check when this stuff comes up.......a way to check yourself and see if what you think you are made of is true.....or what you feel you believe you do......and having this little blip has done this.....causing me to do some soul searching and peer inside.......I had a fun night with friends last night.....lots of laughs.......plan on doing some school stuff today, and hiking later with my kids..... Last minute summer adventures await......and prepare for my big announcement for my women's series tomorrow! Also a friend is taking a family picture of us tomorrow too and Madeline's kick off for her school is Sunday! Lots to look forward to and be grateful for indeed:)
jperuso
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