4 am.......

I get up at 4 am every day of the week and lots of weekends........and most times it is not my alarm that wakes me, I wake up right before my alarm and get up......and if you told me long ago that I would be doing that, but even more than that, ENJOYING this time of morning, I would have called you crazy......the early morning roaming began after my ex left and my nights got shorter, and I was working through all that came with it.....but I have been getting up at 5 or so for a long time....since Gabe was little.....however 4 am has become this sacred space for me.....this little nugget of goodness in my day that I enjoy tremendously.....I come downstairs and the house is still.....and I make coffee, and get our vitamins ready....and then I sit in my favorite chair with my coffee.....and my electric blanket these days, and put my music on, and blog.....and then I meditate....and spend some time giving to me, by the dim light of my fireplace and the little lights I have on it.....and then I get lunches ready and workout, then I wake the kids and we all get ready for the day.........and I write all of this, and share my love of early morning again, due to it being so disrupted yesterday....and how it threw my entire day off....I did not get to work out.....not fully anyway.....and my coffee game was off.....no sitting in my favorite chair, blogging by hotspot on my computer via my phone, and I did end up freeing my car from the garage with the pull cord....and got to get some more coffee....but it wasn't the same as sitting and savoring lol:) And it all struck me, the creature of habit I have become in my new life.....even more than the old one.....happy to live out the ritual of my morning on repeat day after day......and holding this space sacred for myself......I was actually looking forward to waking up this morning, and getting to settle into it again after yesterday, I know that sounds crazy lol:) But it truly is a lovely time of the day.....it really is....and maybe it is even more captivating to me because it is my only alone time....sans my kiddos.....or any kids, since I am a teacher ;-) The stillness and quiet......nothing beats it....I do go to bed early, to allow for such an early morning.....and for now that works in my life too.....I will trust the evolution of it all......knowing that it all unfolds as it should.....us finding our way to the stuff that speaks to us when it should.....and for now.....this spot in the world, speaks to me......and it is a tiny piece of goodness that I hold onto amid the rest.....4 am ahh.........;-) Have a good day! :)