The first thought I have when I open my eyes is of him and what has happened......the thoughts stay most of the day even amid the...

Grace- "do honor or credit to (someone or something) by one's presence. Courteous goodwill." It is a powerful thing to give...

Every once in awhile through this there comes an emotional wave that is just TOO BIG.....too big to jump over.....too big to ride.....too...

They are one of my least favorite parts of all of this..... but I know they are a necessary part of it all, as my subconscious tries to...

I have always considered myself to be a fairly energetic person......capable of getting a lot done, and doing whatever I set out to do in...

In the beginning of this I found myself thinking I could impart reason, logic, and truth to all of this in the hopes of making this...

So I don't have a truly vengeful cell in my entire body or a spiteful one....revenge is not my thing really.....it requires energy in an...

After my sister passed there were many moments that out of the blue this wave of panic would wash over me......the wave came with the...

So for the first time this weekend I felt the feeling of being lonesome......lonesome for a place of long ago.....lonesome for my life of...

I have kept the jeans I had on the night I met up with Nick all those years ago.......the night that lead to the last 20 years of my...

This is a tricky one.....if you would have asked me before this happened if I "LOVED MYSELF" or if my self esteem was good I would have...

When you are young it is hard to know who you are......you are trying to find your way in the world, maybe your person, and make a living...

I sometimes tell myself that one day I will be cured.....my heart fully healed.....back to its original state....my heartaches before my...

So I have mentioned that this new life I am carving out is pretty amazing. I am enjoying my zen little vibe I got going.......I like...

I feel as if two plus months ago our family sustained an enormous earthquake, like a category 10, and after, the aftershocks were...

I have mentioned that I am in a better spot emotionally now and overall in recent days....the dust is settling so to speak and I am...

Early on in my agony I was struck by what a strange opportunity I had been given....the opportunity to start over in the MIDDLE of my...

I am often struck by how much harder what has happened is on me than him.....like truly......in nearly every single way........he left...

We had to see each other this week.....it is the most bizarre feeling to have the person you knew the best in this world, have felt the...

As I walk through the ruins of my marriage and try and sort through the rubble.....I am struck with how much it feels like an abandoned...