I am going to attempt to write this without sounding hokey;-) earlier on I had also written about this phenomenon that has found me...

I recently wrote about the night he left......and the deafening silence he left behind for me to fill.....he got to drive away and drive...

So I believe in karma.......I truly believe what we put out into this world is reflected back.....that the lives we live, perhaps the...

I haven't gone on a date yet......been asked a few times, but have politely declined.....I think it is likely that people's timelines are...

I sometimes think of the night he left......not often.....but it sometimes comes to my mind....the fact that it was an ordinary...

So I wrote about this early on......devoted a whole blog entry to it and felt it was time to circle back around and check in on how I am...

Field of dreams right?:) I sort of feel like I have been wandering the last few months, through my own field of dreams......feeling new...

I will never stop trying for Nick and I to have a functional relationship......a healthy one.....one that benefits our kids......not...

So I think of this a lot.....I have always loved mothering.....from the moment Gabe was born, he became my priority, and my life began to...

There are times when I am driving.....or doing something mindless when a memory will pop into my mind of something that married...

There are things that hit me at times that stop me dead in my tracks and make me wonder how he does what he does sometimes.....and when...

No matter how much I grow, learn, know, do, reflect, ponder, understand, and be.....the little quiet ache that remains a part of me won't...

One of the stranger parts of this story is that the other woman hates me.....like truly hates me.......and has since the moment she began...

So my story began 10 months ago.....on a Thursday night.....after dinner....with my daughter lying on the living room floor....a play doh...

Yesterday as my kids and I were driving home from hiking they started talking about their dad......and why he left.....and how much they...

So as some of you may have seen, I put my new chapter out there again yesterday....and it felt really good to have it be so well...

No matter what I know now.......or how much I have traveled in the last 10 months.....having a failed marriage on my life scorecard still...

I have felt since Madeline began this new school.....and the philosophies that lie within her school that we are traveling a similar...

Fear is the biggest liar there is in this life......especially now amid the unsettled world we live in.....and it is so tempting, at any...

One of the most amazing things that has happened in all of this is the amount of energy I feel in a given day......it feels boundless...